Amazing God. Life is really good right now but I am having a hard time getting excited like I should. You are blessing the ministry, people around me, and me and I am SO grateful; but the drive, the energy, the excitement for the next new thing that usually comes so naturally for me, doesn't seem to be there.
I don't know why. I am not depressed, I am just kind of calm, but maybe too calm? I don't know if I am just at peace or if I am missing out on fully experiencing this wonderful season that you have created for us? I don't know.
I am always picking myself apart and now I am picking myself apart about being too much at peace...that seems stupid. Thanks for listening God, even when I don't make sense.
What God Said Tonight:
I have compared you to stained glass in the past and I will do it again because it is the best way to describe this time.
Right now, I don't need you to be the charging force to move things forward. I need you to be the calm, still glass that reflects beauty on everything around it. I need you to be the calm sure place that people come back to as they step into things they never imagined possible. I need you to reflect my light to them in a way that is so beautiful, it takes their breath away and encourages them to go back out and do even more. I need you to be my stained glass.