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Friday, December 31, 2010


My prayer:
Awesome God, my Father,teacher,healer, guide and lover of my soul.  We say good bye to 2010 tonight.  What an amazing year you have made this God!  I truly sit in awe of all that you have done this year, in my life, in my church, in my friends lives and in your ministry. 

God you have shown me how you can truly make the impossible possible this year.  You have shown me how you can bless us to prosper in ways I never could have imagined.  You have shown me that there is so much more to do, so much more life to live!  You God have convinced me this year that I truly can trust you with everything, nothing held back.  You have consistently shown me your abiding love for me.  You have done more miracles than I can count.  You have shown your ability to heal us in so many situations emotionally, spiritually and of course physically. 

God I know that you probably don't put much notice to the end of the year and the beginning of a new one.  You have seen so many new years and you have a different time scale than me.  But for me, this is a time to really reflect, appreciate and get excited for what is next. 

God, you have made so many dreams come true for so many of us this year.  And yet there are still so many dreams that have yet to be fulfilled.  God I thank you for being both the giver of dreams and the fulfillment of them.  I ask tonight God that you hear the many dreams that people have for this next year and that you give them the desires of their hearts God.  You know I have my own dreams too God and I thank you in advance for what you are going to do in them in 2011.  I am so grateful for all that you did in 2010 and I can't wait to see what you do in 2011!  In Jesus name, amen.

What God Said Tonight:
You might be surprised daughter.  Milestones are important to me whether they are artificial like the end of the year or whether they are celebrations and remembrances of something I have done like Passover.  I love when you take time to reflect on all that has happened and all that I have done.  It is through that reflection that you remember and build your faith for the next thing. 

Be careful to not get lost in the past though.  I need you in the now and looking toward the future because there is much left to do.  But, reflect and see that I am good. 

I have loved this year and our time together.  This has been a special time of launching.  Launching of this ministry, launching of your church, launching of new believers, and so much more.  You will be amazed one day when I am able to show you all that happened that you did not get to see.  Your everyday life has a greater effect than you know. 

Remember to live your life as though every second matters because it does.  Remember to live your life as if someone is watching, because they are.  Remember to celebrate in your life as if there is always something to celebrate, because there is. 

You will see even greater things in the coming year than you did in the former year.  Your latter years will be greater than your former years.  You have just begun to see and understand all that I want for you. 

We laid some great groundwork this year.  We laid a firm foundation to build on.  We have much to build but the foundation needed to be strong to hold it up.  You have a foundation now that will hold many bricks and stones.  You have a foundation that will withstand any storm.  You have a foundation that will last an eternity. 

I do love you so daughter.  If nothing else happened this year other than you understanding that and learning to really trust me, that would have been enough and miraculous all in itself.  The rest was fun too though, I have to admit. 

I love you and I will be with you always and forever.  You are shining like a golden ball of light.  My light shining though you will draw many in the next year.  Shine and I will draw people to me.  Keep doing all that I call you to. Keep trusting me.  Keep living with and loving me.  You will never regret a life with me, I love you.

Thursday, December 30, 2010


My prayer:
My awesome God.  I did not do anything that I planned on doing today.  I did not accomplish much of anything really.  I am feeling pretty useless tonight God.  I even, for the first time, considered not meeting you like this tonight God.  It was only a brief thought but I am tired and feeling pretty worthless and it crossed my mind. 

Wow, looks like I am having a big pity party for me tonight God.  I don't even want to listen to me tonight so I won't make you listen to me.  I think I should shut up and listen to what you have to say.  I love you so much God.  I am sorry that I wasn't more use to you today.

What God Said Tonight:
My daughter, remember that I don't calculate your worth based on what use you are to me.  I don't consider your worth based on what you accomplish.  My love for you does not change based on what you do or don't do.  My love for you is solid and cannot be moved.  My love for you is guaranteed.  As such, I always want to hear from you and whatever is happening, I want to share it with you. 

You know why you are feeling the way that you are.  It is the same reason as always.  When you draw within yourself and stop reaching out, like you did today, you feel worthless.  It is ok to rest but it is not ok to isolate.  When you isolate, you hurt yourself.  You were created to be in relationship with others and connected with others.  You know this.  We have talked about it many times.  But I also know it can be hard to see it when you are in the middle of it. 

Rest tonight and reach out tomorrow.  Reconnect.  Stop isolating and this mood, this feeling will lift. 

Your enemy wants you isolated.  You are more vulnerable when you are isolated.  You are more apt to fall for his lies.  You are more apt to think the worst of yourself.  Just don't do it.  Reconnect. 

I love you more than can know.  You are my precious daughter that I died for.  I would do it again today.  You are so very important to me.  I am your covering and will keep you safe.  I will heal you.  I will guide you always.  You are the target of my love.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Wait and expect...

My prayer:
Awesome Father God, I am tired tonight. No good reason, just pooped. 

Thank you for your favor today and making me succeed.  I love you God.  Thank you for all that you do.  Thank you for hearing the prayers for healing and thank you for your healing power in our lives. 

I am coming to expect you to heal every time.  I don't ever want to take it for granted.  Your healing power is a true miracle and I don't ever want to lose the awe of it all.  But, you are so consistently healing people that I am coming to expect it, not just hope for it.  I think that is a good long as I never forget that it is all you, give you the praise and never lose the awe of your miraculous healing power. 

Thank you God for being a healing God.  Thank you for loving us so much that you don't just provide a way for us to be redeemed of the punishment of our sin but that you also provide a way that we can live a better life.  A way that we can live a life of divine health.  You loved us so much that on the way to the cross to pay for our sin, you took on our sickness too.  You didn't have to.  You could have gone to the cross and that would have been more than enough but you went farther so we could live free of sickness and I for one plan to receive all of the healing that you have for me and everyone around me.  Love you God.

What God Said Tonight:
Wait on the moment of  clarification, wait on me.  I have more for you.  I have more knowledge and more understanding.  I have more wisdom for you but wait on it.  Wait on me.  You have learned so much in a short amount of time, relatively speaking.  I have so much more to teach you and show you.  Wait on me. 

Your life is full right now, using the knowledge and wisdom you have received.  Your faith is growing daily.  You are coming to trust my promises in a whole new way and at a whole new level and that is all good.  That is what I had planned for.  There is this new season coming where what you know now will not be enough.  There is this new season where the faith you have now will not be enough.  There will be this new season that will require a new level of trust.  What you have learned will help you in the new season but you will need more. 

Don't rush this new season.  Wait on me.  It will come at the right and appointed time.  In the meantime, keep at what you are doing. 

Expect the promises I have given you, in healing and in everything else.  Expect me to show up every time and I will.  I will never leave you and I do not lie.  You can count on me and you can expect me to come through.  

I love you daughter.  Peace, be still and wait on me.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010


My prayer:
Hi God!  I am a bit early tonight but I couldn't think of anything I wanted to do more than talk with you, so here I am!  God, life has been so serious lately.  Tonight can we just hang out and talk?  I don't ever want to be disrespectful, I love and respect you beyond measure. But, I also love it when we spend time together laughing, celebrating and having fun! 

Life is so amazing right now.  Sometimes I worry that it will stop, your miracles, your opportunities to minister, the blog...all of it.  It is all so good, I just want it to keep going forever.  But, even as I say that, I know me and as much as I love what you are doing right now, I always want the new thing too.  I guess what I really want is to be able to be a part of what you are doing forever.  Since you have promised me an eternity with you, I guess I don't have to worry about that. 

God, will you always let me be a part of what you are doing?  Since you can use anyone, will you always use me?  I hope so. 

Huh, here I started out saying I wasn't going to get serious tonight but that all sounded pretty serious.  There is so much joy in living with you God.  There is struggle and tests too, but there is SO MUCH JOY! I am happy to be your kid God.  I am happy to be your hands and feet whenever you need me.  I am happy to be yours.

What God Said Tonight:
I am happy you are mine too.  I am happy that I am yours.  We will be together forever.  I will always have assignments for you.  Sometimes the assignment may be to rest and let me take care of things but I will always have assignments for you.  I know what you need and what will fulfill you better than you know yourself.  As long as you trust me and follow my lead, you will live a full and satisfied life.  That is what I want for you. 

Don't worry about what you talk to me about.  Whatever you want to talk about, I want to hear.  When you are joyful, when you are sad, when you are successful, when you fail, when you on top of the world and when you are under a rock, wherever you are at, whatever you are thinking, I want to hear it. 

You can't shock me or run me off just by sharing what is on your heart.  I don't scare easy.  I love you daughter and I want to know every corner of your heart and mind. 

Sometimes we will be serious and deep together, sometimes we will laugh and all of it is joy.   Even when you cry with me, it will be joy because it gives me the opportunity to heal you and comfort you.  It is the opportunity for a praise report that you can use to help others.  It is ALL JOY! 

I love you and love to laugh with you.  I love to cry with you.  I love to dance with you and I love to sing with you.  I love to be with you.  Remember my love for you and let it strengthen you every day.  Live in the happiness and joy that I have created for you.  You think it is a coincidence that the "Happy Song" just came on your iPod?  No coincidence my girl! 

Be happy with me :)

Monday, December 27, 2010

Live free...

My prayer:
Mighty Father God that makes me succeed.  You really are amazing God.  I continue to be in awe of how you work everything out.  Thank you for today and for working everything out that seemed like such a mess.  Taking each thing as it comes and dealing with that thing, trusting you to order my steps, it is a pretty fantastic way to live God.  Thank you for guiding me always and being a lamp to my feet and light to my path.  I will follow your lead always God. I love you and I am so grateful to you God.  What is on your mind and heart tonight?

What God Said Tonight:
Freedom is how I want you to live.  I want you to live in freedom. Freedom from worry, freedom from fear, freedom from sin.  I did not intend for you to live bound up by all of the mess.  I intend for you to live free.  I intend for you to have the way out of bondage.  You have been given that way out.  Make sure that you are taking advantage of it in every area of your life. 

Search for those parts of your life where you have no control.  The areas where you do things you know you shouldn't, where you do things you don't even really want to do.  Those are the areas that you are still in bondage. 

It is time to be free.  It is time for you to fully accept the gift of freedom provided by my sacrifice on the cross.  You had access to it from the moment of my sacrifice but you still have to receive it. I love you and it causes me pain to see you bound and living in less than what I have for you.  I don't need you to talk about it, not even to me, but I need you to recognize it and I need you to receive the freedom that you know is yours.  There is no value in hanging onto the bondage.  There is no benefit in bondage.  There is great value in living free. 

I love you and want you to have every good thing.  Receive this good thing and live free tonight.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Branches of light...

My prayer:
You are so amazing God.  Another miracle healing praise report today! I love to see you work in people's lives and in their health!! I especially love it when they are not really expecting it and you do it anyway!  What a crazy honor that you let me be a part of that God.  That you let me witness it and be a part through prayer, what an honor.  I love that you can use anybody God.  I love that you can use big name people and I love that you can use a nobody like me. I love that you truly don't care who it is, you can use us all to accomplish your will if we are willing.  Amazing God.  Absolutely amazing. Thank you God for letting me be a part of what you are doing. 

It is back to work tomorrow God and I am not sure I am ready.  This has been such a fantastic Christmas weekend, I don't really want it to end.  But, I am grateful for my job and I thank you for the new opportunities you have opened there for me.  I pray God for your help to see your opportunities in my job and in every moment of my life.  Help me to see your purpose in it all.  I pray God that you prosper the work of my hands and make me successful so I can continue to do all that you have for me to do.  I love you God.  What is on your mind tonight?

What God Said Tonight:
It isn't over.  The joy, the light, the branches of light that you experienced this weekend are not over.  This weekend was a beginning not an ending.  You are beginning this next season that I have been talking about.  I am not sure you understand yet how momentous it is but you will. 

My children are like branches of light going out into the world.  Each one branching off and creating room for more lights.  It is through this branching of light that we will light the world.  It is through this branching of light that we will vanquish the darkness forever. 

I am getting tired of darkness on this earth.  I am getting fed up with seeing evil win even the smallest of battles.  The time is coming that satan will be put in his place forever.  The time for your banquet to be set before your enemies is nearly here. 

Keep at the work of the kingdom so I don't have to delay this any longer than is absolutely necessary.  Keep talking about me, keep praying, keep showing people my power.  Keep lighting the world and creating new branches as you bring my light to other peoples lives.  Light up my children throughout the world so we can end this sin riddled time and move into the wondrous time of living for eternity together forever in joy and free from the shackles of sin.  There is a velvet throne waiting for my children.  Keep at the work, being my hands and my feet so we can finish this race. 

I love you daughter.  You are the apple of my eye and I love doing these things with you and for you.  I love spending time with you.  I loved this Christmas and look forward to next year together.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

God's power...

My prayer:
Awesome and mighty God, Father, thank you for another amazing day.  Before I get too far into this, Happy Birthday Jesus!  I know that this was likely not the actual day over 2,000 years ago that you were born but since I don't know the real date, Happy Birthday! 

I love you God.  I thank you Jesus for all that you did for me.  Thank you for living to understand me better.  Thank you for dieing so my sin would be covered.  Thank you for rising out of death, defeating satan and death so that I can have everlasting life with you. 

God, I have said those words many times, I have heard them in many church services.  But, when I stop to think about each one of them, really stop to think, each statement is more unbelievable than the last.  The God of the universe decides to be born as a human and live as a human.  Ok, kind of unbelievable but not unthinkable.  You are God, you can do whatever you want.  If you want to try out being human, ok.  But then, you chose to die for me to pay for my sin.  You chose to die for me.  That is a bit more unthinkable.  That kind of sacrifice comes only with GREAT love.  I think the only one I know of who would die for me other than you is my mom. So, to accept that you died for me, I have to accept that you love me, A LOT.  But then it just gets crazy.  You resurrected yourself from the dead, defeated satan and death and I get to live forever with you.  What part of that sentence is believable in every day life?  And yet, it is true.  Every word of it is true. 

God you are so amazing, so powerful and so wonderful.  I can't believe I get to live everyday with you and I can't imagine living one second without you.  Thank you for teaching me the truth of who you are and what you have done.  Thank you for showing me how to believe the unbelievable and see it work in my life.  Thank you God for being you and loving me.  I hope you had the best birthday ever today Jesus!! Let's keep the celebration going tomorrow as we worship.  Love you so very much.

What God Said Tonight:
Wait and see my daughter.  We have a great year ahead of us.  You thought this last year was great, wait until you see what is to come. 

I do love these celebrations with you and with my children.  Today was good but it has me thinking about your future about our future together.  I can't wait to see your face when we get to do the things we are about to do.  You haven't even imagined most of it.  You are going to see my power like you have never seen before.  You are going to see miracles you have yet to imagine.  You will also see things that you have hoped and dreamed about.  You will see the manifest miracles that you have heard of but not yet seen.  Healing miracles will remain  prominent in your life.  You are called to it.  But you will begin to see more and more miracles in other areas as well.  You will begin to see my power in a whole new way. 

I am tired of my children living with less. I am tired of my children living below thier privilege level.  It is time for my children to take their rightful place.  It is time for my children to step up and be counted.  It is time for my children to stand out and be recognized as the priests and kings that they are.  It is time. 

My power is coming to the world, to you my daughter.  Wait and see how awesome it is.  I love you and know that I can trust your faithfulness with this.  We are going to have a blast this coming year.  I promise.  I love you daughter.  Thank you for today.  I will remain with you always.

Friday, December 24, 2010

Giving and receiving...

My prayer:
Awesome God!  This was the best Christmas eve of my life so far!!  Tonight was awesome God!  Thank you!!! Awesome worship, great presentation of your birth, great message, opportunities to pray for people and to minister, God it was awesome!!  You even had them play my FAVORITE Christmas song, and that one never gets played in church because it is so hard! 

God you have truly poured out a blessing on me that I cannot contain tonight!  God I almost feel guilty.  This is your birthday.  I should be giving to you not receiving so much from you.  God, you have my heart, my mind and my spirit.  Anything that I have is yours.  I commit my whole life to you.  I love you so much.  Thank you for tonight.  What a great celebration!!!  Can't wait to see what we do together tomorrow!  I LOVE YOU!!!!

What God Said Tonight:
My sweet daughter.  Don't you know that it is my greatest pleasure to give to you.  The line between giving and receiving can be completely blurred if it is done right.  If you give from your heart, you receive as much as you give.  When I give to you, I receive a multiplied blessing back.  Just like you, when you give, you are blessed more in the giving than when you receive. 

True heartfelt giving, the relational giving that your Pastor talked about tonight, doesn't keep track of who gave and who received.  It is all a part of the same.  When my son Jesus died for you, it was a great gift that he gave freely.  However, he received, we received, the opportunity to see our children restored to us through that gift.  So, who received the greater gift?  I value the return of my children above all else.  I received as much as I gave in that one transaction, that one gift. 

When you give like that, you will never grow tired of giving.  You will never burn out or run out of steam.  When you give from your heart the very gift that you give will multiply itself back into your life. 

Tonight I have received as much as I have given.  Your receipt of the blessing is my gift.  Thank you for being with me tonight.  Thank you for spending time with me this season.  You were thinking about it today that Christmas is not a holiday that I asked for.  It is not like Passover where I told my children to observe the holiday in remembrance.  Christmas is something that you all came up with.  But, that doesn't make me love it less, it makes me love it more.  I love that you choose a day and season to celebrate my birth.  I love that we get to spend this time together. 

You will be blessed as you bless.  You will be comforted as you comfort.  You will be healed as you pray for healing.  You are my very own gift and I love you .

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Beautiful tapestry...

My prayer:
Awesome Father.  What a great designer you are.  I have been thinking about this last year and all of the things and experiences you have woven together in my life and in my friends lives to create magnificent things.  Books, CDs, websites, this ministry, new jobs, new babies, new relationships, and more, it is really quite remarkable God. 

One of the things that I love about you God is how you take seemingly unrelated things in my life and weave them together to create an opportunity, an opportunity to serve you, to bless people and to be blessed.  I always go back to Joseph's life and the series of tragic things that were done to him that you worked together for his good and the good of his family, his country.  I can see that same thing mirrored in my life and in the lives of my friends. 

Sometimes I wish I didn't have to go through the tragedy part, but I am so grateful that you weave the good the bad and the ugly together to create new life and new opportunity.  I am grateful that you have a plan and a purpose for us.  God I love you and thank you for how you orchestrate my life and give it meaning.  Tell me what is on your mind tonight.

What God Said Tonight:
This year has been great.  I told you it would be.  I am glad you listened.  I am glad that you hear me and you do what I tell you to do, at least most of the time.  I am grateful to have children that take the time and the effort to listen to me.  I am always talking, not always is there someone to listen.  Not always is there someone to hear what I have to say. 

The purpose and plan that I have for you and for all of my children is so great.  You see the tapestry of your life.  If you could see it from my perspective and see the tapestry of the kingdom, the tapestry of all of your lives, all of your purposes weaving together for one over riding purpose, now THAT is BEAUTIFUL. 

You are beautiful.  You are beautiful in your joy and in your struggle.  I love to look at you.  I love to watch you and see you live out this life I have for you.  I love to be with you.  I love to talk to you and I love to listen to you.  Fact is, I just simply love YOU.  The beauty of your spirit and of your purpose is a joy to me.  You delight me daughter and I love you. 

See the beauty of this life, of your friends, of the kingdom.  The beauty is there to be appreciated.  I created it for you.  Receive the beauty as my gift to you this Christmas. 

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Get out of your head...

My prayer:
Mighty God and awesome Father.  The creator of everything that ever was or ever will be.  You are so amazing and beyond my ability to really comprehend God.  I learn more about you and get to know you better every day and still feel like I only know the very tip of who you are.  There is so much to you. 

You who are all knowing and all powerful.  Let me try to wrap my mind around that a minute.  You know EVERYTHING.  My Dad, My Lord knows everything there ever has been to know or ever will be.  You have the answer to every question, even the ones that are never asked.  EVERYTHING. 

Ok, so if I can find a way to understand that, now to understand that you are all powerful.  You are the most powerful force ever.  Nothing is more powerful than you.  You are more powerful than earthquakes. 

Let's say I get that, I am not sure that I really do, but let's say I do.  Now, you are the creator of everything that ever has or will exist.  You created the air, the water, the animals, the plants, the planets, the stars, the molecules, me. 

You are the Alpha, the beginning.  Before there was anything, there was you.  And, somehow you are also the Omega, the ending.  After everything is gone, at the end of everything else, you are there.  That is about where my ability to comprehend you ends. 

Then, to realize that you are all of that and more, and you love me.  You take time to make sure my life is going according to plan.  You take time to talk to me every day.  You take time to make sure I am loved every day and provided for.  You listen to me every day no matter how small or petty my thoughts may be.  How is that possible? 

God, I think I have been in "church" long enough now that I take for granted some things.  We always talk about you being Alpha and Omega, all knowing, all powerful, creator of all things and more, but I am not sure that I have really spent time thinking about what that all really means. 

God help me to truly understand you better. Help me to truly know you better.  Help me to have a deeper understanding of who you are and what is important to you.  Help me to know you and understand you.  I love you God and I want to know everything there is to know about you.

What God Said Tonight:
You are getting to know me better every night and every day.  You get to know me better every time you read the Bible.  You get to know me better every time you pray.  You get to know me better every time you listen to me.  You get to know me better every time you look at this world and wonder at the creation of it all. 

I love you daughter and you know me better than you think.  I gave you a mind and I love that you use it to reason me out, to think about me logically.  However, much of knowing me is Spirit, emotion, heart connection.  So much of knowing me is felt, not reasoned. 

Your brain can understand much about me but even if you study every minute of every day for the rest of eternity, you will never fully know me that way. Much of who I am has to be experienced, not reasoned.  I know you like to think things through. You like to use that brain I gave you and that is good.  But really, get out of your head tonight and feel me.  Get out of your head and experience me.  Get out of your head and see me.  I am here with you now.  Know me by being with me and me being with you. 

Part of why I got angry with the religious people when I was on earth was because they had gotten so busy with study and so busy trying to reason and argue it all out, they forgot to spend time with me.  They forgot that I had all the answers and if they asked me, they could save a whole of time and strife.  Ask me your questions, listen to my answers and take the time saved to just be with me. 

I love you daughter.   Don't stop thinking but sometimes, let your mind rest and just be with me.  I love you so much and I cherish our time together when you are focused on me.  I cherish you worship.  I cherish you attention.  I cherish you my sweet daughter.  You rest but stay with me always.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010


My prayer:
Mighty God, my Father.  Your birthday celebration is almost here God!  Every year, Christmas seems to sneak up on me.  I never feel like I am ready.  God, Jesus, I hope this year is a good celebration of you and for you.  We have some special things planned.  I hope you enjoy them.  I hope God that you get everything you hope for.  I pray God that our worship is that sweet fragrance for you.  I pray and hope that you can feel our love for you this Christmas.  God if there is anything special you want, please let me know.  Anything I have the ability to give is yours. 

What God Said Tonight:
I am excited for the celebration.  I am excited that so many of my kids remember the purpose of this celebration. I am waiting with anticipation the celebration we will have. 

I love that you plan to celebrate each year with me.  I love your worship.  I love how you take the time to wonder what I want and ask me.  Most years, at least recently, I have told you something specific that I wanted for Christmas.  There was the year of the big outreach donation, the year of the Denver Rescue Mission support and more.  This year, I haven't been specific. 

This year, I am more interested in spending time with you than I am in what you can or will give.  I know that I have your heart and I don't need your money.  I just want to enjoy the day with you.  I want to enjoy the season with you.  I love to spend time with you.  That is the greatest gift for me. 

Take plenty of time this season to spend time with me.  Take the time to celebrate with me that we have come through another year with flying colors.  This has been a pretty phenomenal year and many people have been touched by my Spirit.  Many have made a decision to live for me. Many have heard the gospel for the very first time. 

This is a year to celebrate.  This is a life to celebrate.  This is a season to celebrate.  That is all I want. Celebrate with me my daughter.  Party on earth as we are in heaven.  I love you and can't wait to celebrate with you.

Monday, December 20, 2010

The storm of living water...

My prayer:
Mighty God you are awesome and I am yours.  I am also really tired.  I am not sue I can put two thoughts together tonight.  What do you have to talk about God?

What God Said Tonight
I am here and  I will give you peace.  My peace that is not reliant on circumstances.  My peace that is not reliant on people.  My peace which passes, goes beyond your ability to understand it.  I am here with that peace tonight. 

I am not here to change the circumstances tonight.  Every circumstance in your life right now is there for a purpose and changing it would interfere with that purpose.  But I can give you total peace in the middle of it.  I can be your strong tower.  I can protect you.  I can cover you and wrap myself around you keeping you warm in the cold.  I will be like a fur blanket, wrapped around you from head to toe, protecting you keeping you warm in the worst of blizzards.  I will wrap you to the sled and drive you through the storm. 

You don't want me to stop this storm.  The storm will create the provision for your promise.  But I can take you safely through the storm, safe and warm.  I just need you to continue that total trust and in return I will give you total peace. 

I love you daughter.  You know my love for you cannot be measured.  I promise, this storm that is cold and blinding at times will be the building blocks of the promise of tomorrow.  It will provide the living water to pour out in the next season. Just like every year when I bring the heavy snow to your mountains.  The snow is deep, it makes living normal life difficult and sometimes it is so bad that everything has to stop.  But, in the spring, when the sun comes out and begins to warm the snow, it melts and provides all the water you need to water the entire plains. 

This storm is storing up living water for your spring.  Try to see it that way and rest in my peace, the cocoon of peace that I have made for you.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Love well...

My prayer:
My God, Daddy, I am not sure what to pray about tonight.  Today was terrible and wonderful all at the same.  Terrible because of being hurt, wonderful because of the amazing church family you have given me who rallied around, prayed and loved on me.  That really made all of the difference God. 

I love you so much and your love is often enough all on its own.  But, I am weak and I need a love I can touch sometimes.  God you told me earlier tonight and in the past that you would always put people in my life to love me.  They may not be the same people over time, but there will always be people to love me. 

Why is love so important? Why is it that without love, we often either die or kill ourselves?  Living with too little love is like living with too little oxygen.  It numbs me until I can't really do anything but pass out and if it doesn't change, die. 

God thank you for teaching me the hard lesson over the last several years that the answer to hurt, the answer to a lack of love is not to isolate.  The answer is to run to you and your people.  There is where the healing is.  There is where the love is.  Thank you God.  Thank you for my church family.  Thank you for people in my life who love me.  Thank you for people in my life for me to love. 

I may not understand why love is so important, but I definitely know it is.  Fact is, you are love.  No wonder it is important!  The creator of the universe and my Daddy is love, of course it would be important.  God I really do love you so much.  What is on your mind tonight?

What God Said Tonight:
Love is the most important thing that ever was or ever will be.  Love is the only reason for all of this.  The only reason for humanity, the only reason for this universe, the only reason to do anything is love. 

There is no parallel to love. There is nothing that can or ever will compare.  It is in and of itself the most important thing to ever exist.  Just the sense of a possible lack of love can throw us into a tail spin.  Why to you think I so often got angry with Israel in the past?  They kept forgetting me.  To be forgotten is one of the worst ways to feel unloved.  If someone is hating you and talking bad about you, you at least still know that they are thinking about you.  To be forgotten, that is beyond painful.  The lack of love demonstrated in that forgetting is truly horrible.  It is like a avalanche of crushing rocks that fall on me.  It is a darkness that tries to envelop me.  It is beyond pain. 

To love and be loved, that is all there really is.  Everything else is filling time.  Everything else doesn't matter at the end of the day. All that matters is who you have loved and who has loved you. 

Love well my daughter.  Remember the pain of today not to feel the pain again but to remind you of the importance of loving people so that no one ever feels the way you did today as a result of your actions. 

Love well.  Love me, remember me.  Trust me.  I promise you will never out love me.  I will always pour out more love onto you than you can give to me.  No contest.  I will shower you with my love forever because you are my focus and my everything.  You are my creation and my daughter.  You are my beloved servant and I will love you well. 

Love is the light that banishes darkness.  Love is the power that shatters rock.  Love is the joy and the purpose and the plan I have for your life. Live in the light of love and love well.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Divine health and healing...

My prayer:
Awesome day God!  Thank you for the gift of today.  You are amazing.  Thank you for rest and opportunities.  Thank you for your divine health.  Thank you for how you take care of me.

God your divine health and healing is so amazing.  While you continue to keep me healthy and strong, almost everyone I know has been sick in the last couple of months.  There are flu viruses, upper respiratory infections, sore throats, coughs, pinched nerves, auto immune problems, cancer and more. 

It seems like sickness is rampant in the world right now, but I know God that is not how you intend for us to live.  You were beaten just so we could receive your healing.  I have seen you miraculously heal so many people and it is awesome to get to watch you do your work.  There are also a lot of people who are still sick. 

What is the problem God?  If your will is that we live in divine health and you suffered the stripes on your back just so we could be healed, why aren't more of us living in health and being healed? Is it a receiving problem, a faith problem, what are we doing wrong God?  

I love you God.  Thank you for listening.

What God Said Tonight:
It isn't that you are doing anything wrong.  You are seeing more and more miraculous healing because the time is running short and it is needed now more than ever.  As the final days end, you will see me move more and more.  You will see divine healing more and more.  It is all a part of faith building so you will be prepared for the final days. 

I hear the question of your hear tonight as well, "Why isn't everyone healed?"  There is no one answer to that.  Each situation is unique.  Sometimes, people are not willing to be healed.  Sometimes people don't  realize it but they get some benefit out of being sick and don't want to give it up. Sometimes, there is a spiritual battle going on that delays the healing.  Sometimes there is no one there to stand in the gap and the person them self doesn't know about the gift of healing.  That is the one of the saddest situations and why I need people like you praying more and more for the sick.  Sometimes, people have put their faith in things other than me to heal them.  Sometimes, there is a greater purpose and plan that you don't see yet. 

As I say, each situation is unique.  What I need from you is to keep telling people about the healing power that is their's.  I need you to keep praying.  I need you to keep sharing the praise reports so that people realize what is their's.  So people understand the gift that I want them to have. 

With people like you spreading the word it is possible for the entire kingdom to get a hold of this.  If every child of mine were to realize the strength and power they have in my divine health and healing, can you imagine what we could do? 

You know that this is where your future ministry is headed.  We have talked about it a lot.  Keep asking every question you have because I need your faith to be unshakable in this area.  I need you to stand in the gap. I need you to tell and show others the life of divine health that they can have. 

I love you daughter.  Don't ever stop asking questions.  I promise I will never stop answering.  I love you.  Rest, we have a lot to do tomorrow.

Friday, December 17, 2010


My prayer:
My God, you did some awesome work today!  Thank you for helping my friends today.  Thank you for your favor on their lives.  Thank you for turning a situation that was created to take them out around for their good.

God, how many amazing things do you every day that go unnoticed?  I bet there are billions.  Can I say tonight God, thank you for everything that you have done that I have not noticed.  Thank you for every danger you have protected me from that I didn't even know was there.  Thank you for the blessings you provide every day that I take for granted.  Thank you for breathing life in me.  Thank you for the way you provide for me every day.  You are incredible and I get so use to you being in my life and blessing me, that I take it for granted some times. 

I am so grateful for how you answer every prayer.  I think that I get so use to you answering them that I take it for granted and forget to be truly thankful for the miracle that you are.  You are a miracle making God and you do what you do for my sake. That is crazy.  That you, the God of the universe and King of all kings would create miracles for me, a nobody, wow.  Thank you God.  I love you so much.

What God Said Tonight:
Miracles are really no big thing. I have the power to do anything really.  So, what you see as a miracle is just me taking care of business. 

I know the miracles are impressive to you.  That is part of why I do them, to remind you that I am God and I can do anything.  I do it to remind you that you can trust me and my power.  I do it so all things will work to your good.  But there is no greater miracle in healing cancer than there is in a rainbow.  It is really all the same to me.  I do it for your sake though.  I know that they strengthen you faith and I understand. 

I love you daughter.  Than you for taking the time to thank me for the little things, the unnoticed blessings.  I am not boastful.  I don't need you to notice the miracles, the blessing for me.  I just need you to recognize them for your sake, to build your faith and to help you understand that you can do all things through Christ.  When I am in you in spirit and in truth, my mind is your mind.  You can trust your instincts. 

Rest and keep the sabbath tomorrow.  I love you from the essence of my being.  Rest well and we will talk again tomorrow.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Seperate from God...

My prayer:
My God, awesome Lord, Father, King of Kings and Lord of Lords, my provider and my healer.  God I am so grateful for you.  You are amazing and I love you. 

God, I want everyone to know the joy of living a life for you.  No one should live this life without you.  It is just too hard.  We were made to live with you in us.  We were created to be in relationship with you and without that relationship, I am not sure how people survive. 

God, if we could just receive all that you have for us.  You are so generous God.  You want so much for us.  What are we afraid of?  What am I afraid of?  What would happen if I received the fullness of you.  What if I lived every minute in full receipt of your gifts for me?  If I had that faith that said to the mountain move, and it moved.  If I had the faith to know that anything I ask for in your name, in your will, is mine.  If I could truly believe that, what could we do and accomplish? 

God, grow my faith.  Remove anything that keeps me from fully receiving all that you have for me.  Remove anything that gets in the way of me being all that you planned me to be.  Not for just for my sake but so I can be more effective in reaching and getting help to your people.  There are way too many people who are separated from you God.  No one should have to live this life without you.  In Jesus name, amen.

What God Said Tonight:
Good instincts girl.  You are right that there are much too many people that are separate from me.  I am in desperate pursuit of my people.  The time is so short.  I need to gather in my people for these final stages  The life we will have on the other side of the tribulation, on the other side of the final swan song of the devil, is so awesome.  I cannot fully explain it to you.  I can't wait to show you though.  I can't wait to live it with you. 

In the meantime, talk about me a lot.  Let people hear my name.  Let people hear who I am.  Be my mouthpiece for people to hear my voice until they can hear me for themselves.  That is why I wanted you to do this blog.  I want to speak to my people.  I want to tell them what is on my mind and I want to help them.  Not everyone can hear me on their own yet.  They will.  One day, all my children will know my voice.  In the meantime, I need them to get to know me and this is one way that will happen. 

So, be my mouthpiece.  Tell the world who I am.  Tell the clerk at the sandwich shop who I am.  Tell the people you work with who I am. Tell the people on facebook who I am.  Proclaim my gospel throughout the world my daughter.  I love you and I am grateful for your faithfulness and obedience.  You are precious to me and I will be with you and in this all the way. Sleep well.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Total trust...

My prayer:
Awesome God, this was a good day.  Nothing too spectacular, but just good.  Thank you for today.  Thank you for amazing people in my life.  Thank you for amazing opportunities.  Thank you for continuing to prosper me.  Thank you for surrounding me with the love of people.  Thank you for being my Father and taking such amazing care of me. 

God, my prayer remains, that your will is accomplished in my life.  Nothing more and nothing less. I want everything that you have for me and I don't want anything that you don't want me to have.  God you are truly amazing and I trust you with everything.  Absolutely everything.  I know that not that long ago, I couldn't say that.  Not that long ago, I trusted you to a point, but I held back because of the past pain.  But now, now God, I can say that I trust you without reservation.  I am not sure when it changed, but I know that it absolutely has.  I trust you God with everything and know that I could not be in better hands.  Thank you God for helping me to this place of trust.  I love you.

What God Said Tonight:
I cherish your trust.  Trust is the truest form of worship.  With that trust, I can now do things in your life and with you that I couldn't do before.  Keep building that trust.  Keep reminding yourself of why and how you got to this place of trust. 

Tests will come in the future that will try to shake your trust.  Look back at this time, this moment and remind yourself that I am trustworthy.  Remind yourself that I will never leave you and I will never forsake you, no matter what. Remember that I will guide you always. Remember that I am faithful and I will not let you down.  Remember that I am not a man that I would lie.  And in this remembrance remember this moment where you know with out a shadow of a doubt that every one of those statements is entirely true. 

I love you daughter.  This trust is the foundation that we can build the rest of your life.  On this trust is the foundation that we can build my kingdom.  You have a great future and it will grow from this base of truth and trust.  I love you so much my daughter.  Remember this moment forever.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Sleepless in Denver...

My prayer:
The God and Lord of all creation.  You who existed before anything else.  You who created all that I know.  You who are Lord over all.  My Daddy.  I love you God. 

I am pretty tired again tonight.  Long day, very little sleep.  God, it seems like I can't get more than about 4 hours of sleep a night right now.  That doesn't seem like enough, although I am not tired during the day.  It is just here, at the end of the day that I feel like I am going to drop. 

I am not sure what my prayer is about this God.  I guess I just want your will to be done.  Fact is, only sleeping 4 hours a night, I am getting a lot done.  Some of it is at 3:00am, but still, I am getting a lot done.  If that is the purpose, if that is why I can't seem to sleep more then hallelujah and please sustain me in this season.  However, if it is the result of something that isn't right, whether it is my health, stress, whatever, I ask God for your healing power in my life. 

I know this is a pretty specific prayer tonight God, but this has been going on for about a week and I either need to understand it better or I need your help to fix it.  I love you God.  Thank you that you let me bring you anything, no matter how big or how small. Thank you that you tell me to pray over everything.  What an awesome God and Father I have. In Jesus name, I ask.  amen.

What God Said Tonight:
You answered your own question.  This is just a season.  It will be a relatively short season, but I have a lot for you to do right now and I need you to have some more hours in the day to do it.  I will sustain and strengthen you through it all.  I will give you the supernatural alertness, the strength, the power to make it through each day. 

The reason you are not getting tired during the day is that I am in you and I will sustain you.  Don't get too caught up in the way things "should be."  I have a special plan and purpose for you and sometimes that means unusual seasons like this one. 

I will continue to restore you each day.  I will continue to keep you lifted and full with my life and my spirit.  You will never falter when you are leaning on me.  This is one of those seasons I told you about where you would have to rely on me completely.  Your reliance and dependence on me will cause your breakthrough and your success.  This is a season to humbly accept that I can do all things, that you can do all things in and through me.  This is a time to see the miracles that I have.  Think of this as one of those miracles. 

I can multiply anything, including rest.  I am a God of multiplication.  I can multiply your effectiveness, I can multiply your time and I can multiply your blessings.  I love you daughter.  Trust me and rest in me.  It will be enough.

Monday, December 13, 2010

The golden eagle...

My prayer:
My God, it is all about you tonight.  I worship you.  I am so beyond grateful for you.  The joy you bring to this life is unparalleled and unexplainable.  God you ALWAYS provide. You ALWAYS prosper me.  You ALWAYS are there to take care of us.  God, no wonder the rocks would praise you if we didn't.  No wonder that the world itself must praise you. 

You are so wonderful.  You are love.  You are peace. And yet, you are also strength and protection.  You are all knowing and ever present.  You are everything and you are worthy.  Oh so very worthy. 

God, I consciously give my life to you.  You give me the choice.  But, when I look at who you are and all you do, how could I make any other choice?  I love you God from the depths of my soul.  I love you from the deepest part of me. I love you from the core of who I am.  I adore you God.  You are mine and I am yours.  Thank you for creating me, choosing me, dieing for me and living for me. 

God, I want to live for you. I want my life to be a living sacrifice for you.  Whatever you need God, if I have it to give, it is yours.

What God Said Tonight:
Anything I have is yours my sweet daughter.  Anything you need is yours.  Anything you desire within my will is yours.  I love you. Moments like this, nights like this are so precious to my heart.  I love the times of intimacy with you.  I love when you open your heart and let me live there. 

You are waiting in prayerful anticipation and I will not disappoint.  I will fulfil every promise on your life.  Your trust in me is growing every day.  Your reliance on me is growing. It is good.  One day, you will need to rely on my so completely and this is good practice. 

You are resting deep in the Holy Spirit tonight.  Let me refresh you and strengthen you.  Let me provide for your every need.  I have more to give you.  You do not have room to contain all that I have to give you and that is by design.  That is what reminds you to give. 

I have put in you a servants heart because you asked for one.  I put in you a generous heart so I could pour out a blessing and know that you would pour it out on those around you. 

You are gold and shining in the sun.  You are like a gold statue of an eagle majestically soaring.  You reflect the strength, the beauty and the ferocity of the eagle.  You are frozen in this moment though, just for a minute, so you can enjoy it and so I can look at you.  You are so beautiful in your dependence and in your strength. 

I love you and will never leave you.  I will provide for you always.  I will guide you always.  It is you and me forever.  Love you, get some rest for tomorrow.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Self critical...

My prayer:
Incredible Father God.  You are amazing.  Thank you for your miracles today.  Thank you for your healing miracles.  Thank you for your powerful protection.  Thank you God for everything.  I love you so much God. 

While I am so grateful for all that you are doing, if I am honest, I have been a little uneasy all day today God.  I am not even sure why.  I find myself being super critical of myself today.  I having been thinking about the things that I have done and have been telling myself I am not good enough. 

Now, there is a whole lot of "I" in those sentences and I realize that is a big part of my problem today God.  I have been way too focused on me and not spending enough time concentrating on others. I can get pretty selfish sometimes.  And then, I beat myself up for being selfish! Not a very helpful cycle God. 

Why is it I know the things I should and should not do and yet sometimes I have such a hard time doing the things I should and not doing the things I should not do?  Was it Paul who asked that same question?  Is there hope?  Do we, do I ever, learn enough that I don't have to continue to repeat patterns that are no good for me or the people around me? 

God, I ask for you help.  I ask God that you help me to stop this self centered and self critical stuff.  It isn't any help and it just depresses me and makes me less effective.  I pray God that you help me get my focus back on you and your people.  I pray God for your help to be a better person tomorrow than I was today.  In Jesus name, amen.

What God Said Tonight:
Yes sweet daughter.  There is always hope.  As long as you have me in your life, there is always hope. You do have a pattern built in your life of becoming self critical.  It's root is deep and it may take a lifetime to pull it out completely, but you are learning.  You are better than you use to be.  You are quicker to recognize the symptom and the cause.  You are making progress. 

You are waiting to be perfect or expecting to be perfect and you never will be.  Your perfection only comes from the covering you have in me.  In yourself, you will never be perfect.  You will never be perfect but you can always be better. 

You're right about changing your focus.  You have the right idea.  However, you may want to spend a little time doing some gardening first.  Tear out a bit of this weed of self criticism.  Recognize your worth in me.  Recognize that you are the daughter of the most high God.  No, your actions are never perfect but they are anointed by my Spirit.  I can cover you when you are less than perfect.  It is why I bled and died.  To be your covering.  That covering is not only protective but also meant to cover your imperfections.  It was meant to make you pure and able to serve me and my people. My covering allows you to be what you need to be to serve me and my people. 

Your continued striving to be better is good.  You will always have room to grow and you will always be growing.  In that growth, be happy with the progress, not critical that you aren't where you hope to be yet. 

You are about to go into a season where complete reliance on me is necessary.  It may be why you are being so critical right now.  Some part of your spirit recognizes that you don't have what it takes to accomplish what we will accomplish in this next season. But the thing is, that is ok.  I never meant you to accomplish it alone.  I always intended that we would do this together.  I just need you to show up and to trust.  You are getting pretty good at those two things. 

So, my daughter, rest in the knowledge that you are imperfect and doing things imperfectly but it doesn't really matter.  My anointing covers everything that needs to be covered.  Maintain the humility but stop the self criticism.  Trust me daughter.  We are in this together.  I love you so very much.  Rest in the total acceptance I have for you.  Rest  in the immovable knowledge that you are and will always be a royal priesthood and the daughter of the most high God.  You are my gem and I love you.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Slow down...

My prayer:
Awesome God, my Father. I am not sure what to pray about tonight.  I have so many things running through my brain. 

Thank you for today. It was a good day.  I am not sure that I was truly obedient to the sabbath as you have reminded me to be.  I did not technically "work" but I was running around all day.  God, this time of year gets so hectic.  I am running around, making sure that all the presents are bought, the parties are attended and that everyone knows that I love you and love them.  It is awesome and exhausting.  Add to it, all the amazing things that you are doing and changing in my life and it is a bit overwhelming. 

Please know that I am not complaining.  I love when life is exciting and full like this.  But we are about to get to celebrate your birthday great is that!  God I love you so much.  I am so grateful for you in my life.  I am so honored that I get to celebrate with you everyday.  In the midst of the full life you have given me, I want to take special care to let you know how much I love you.  I want to take a moment and celebrate that you chose to be born here on earth just so you could live, die and live again for me.  I want to concentrate on the fact that you loved me so much, you went through all of it just so we could be here tonight together.  When I really slow down and let that soak in...I have no words to express the impact God. 

So tonight, no agenda, no list of needs and wants, no requests, I am just in complete awe of you, who you are and what you do. My awesome God, I do love you so.

What God Said Tonight:
Slow down, that is good advice.  Every now and then, slow down and enjoy what your life is becoming.  You have an opportunity to experience what few people ever have.  You have the opportunity to experience a completely full and satisfied life in me.  You have the opportunity to live with nothing missing and nothing lacking.  You have the opportunity, right now to live in the everlasting joy and peace that comes with your salvation. 

Don't get too distracted in the "doing" that you miss the opportunity.  Take time to remember what it is all about.  Take time to just be with me.  Slow down and take time to look around and enjoy what I have done and what I am doing. 

You need to enjoy life more.  You need to enjoy me, us more.  You are faithful, you are always willing to serve.  The Martha in you is strong.  Let Mary in now and then.  Like you started to do tonight, slow down and just enjoy it all.  I will give you the rest you need.  I will give you the strength you need.  I will protect you and I will provide for you.  I will do all of this so relax, slow down and don't let life pass you by.  I planned for a long time for this life of yours. 

You are my precious and wonderful daughter.  You will do much for my kingdom but remember to slow down and enjoy it along the way.

Friday, December 10, 2010


My prayer:
Incredible God, my awesome Father, you are so AMAZING!  Thank you so much God for hearing my prayers and helping me today!  You had favor all over me today!  Thank you for your favor at my job today God.  I can't believe how quickly you moved in that situation to just make it all work out!

God I love how you take care of me.  I am so grateful for how you always work things out for my good.  I can't believe sometimes how blessed I am.  Being your daughter has some major privileges! 

I am back to that age old struggle of not knowing how to thank you enough.  I am so grateful and there really aren't words enough to thank you. Hear my heart God and know how grateful I am.  Hear my heart and know how much I love you.  God you are my everything and I don't want to do anything, ever, that does not have you at the center of it.  You are my core, the deepest part of me.  I praise you.  I worship you.  I stand in awe of you God.

What God Said Tonight:
You need help and of course I am going to be there.  I am your ever present help in time of trouble.  I am the shoulder for you to lean on.  I am the one who makes a way out of no way.  I am the one who provides for you out of my riches in glory.  I AM. 

I appreciate your gratefulness but I don't need it.  I bless you because it is my pleasure to do so.  I bless you because I love you and I want the best for you. I bless you because you are my daughter. 

You are right, being mine has great privilege.  You are beginning to walk in that privilege but there is so much more.  Remember how my son and his disciples were never in want for anything.  If they needed food, they had food. If they needed money, I could call up a fish and there would be money in his mouth.  They never had to worry about their next meal or a roof over their head.  I took care of them. Just as I take care of you. 

You can rest in the assurance that I will always take care of you. I will always rebuke the devourer for your sake.  I will always provide for you out of my riches in heaven.  I will always make sure you have everything you need because that is what a loving father does.  I love you more than you can ever know.  You are mine and I am yours.  We are walking through this life together and as such you NEVER have to WORRY about provision. You never have to worry about the next meal, the place to live or anything else.  I will take care of it. 

Now, concentrate on the things I have given to you.  Now that you know that your provision is completely assured, do what I have called you to do.  Use your gifts for my kingdom.  Bless everyone.  Everyone, not just the ones you like.  BLESS EVERYONE. 

I love you daughter.  You are my precious child.  Your privilege is only a reflection of my reputation.  I have made a way for you sweetheart.  You just sit back and let me worry about the basics.  I love you and will never let you down.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Remember the blessings...

My prayer:
Awesome Father, my God!  I love you God.  I am completely spent with nothing left.  Tonight is all you.  What is on your mind?  I am yours!

What God Said Tonight:
Really? Nothing on your mind tonight daughter?  You know you can ask me for help when you get this tired.  When life gets to be a bit too much, you can ask me for help and I will help you.  You can ask me for strength and I will strengthen you.  You can ask me for anything and it is yours. 

I love you so much daughter.  Your heart is my heart.  Your desires have been put in place by me.  Therefore, anything that you want, is in my will and I am pleased to provide it.  Don't forget to ask.  I already know what you need but in the asking you show your dependence and love for me. 

You are mine and I love you more than you can know.  I try to tell you a lot because I think you often forget.  Your forget how amazing I made you to be.  You forget how much I love you.  You forget how much I want to help you.  Even with us talking everyday, even with the miracles you have seen, even with the prayers you have seen answered, you forget. 

It is common among my children.  Your memories for my blessing in your life are not nearly as strong as your memory of the pain.  You can call up every painful memory throughout your life and dwell on it.  I want you to start doing that with the blessings I have poured out on you.  Focus on the blessings.  Dwell on the blessings.  Remember the blessings.  Remember me.  Remember my love. Cultivate a memory of blessings.  Stop nourishing the memory of pain and start nourishing the memory of blessing. 

I love you sweet daughter.  Rest and prepare for tomorrow.  Lean on me and remember.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Miracle parade...

My prayer: Awesome God and Mighty Lord.  God you are so completely amazing. I love you so much. I need you so much.  I need you in every moment of my life.  I need you to get up in the morning and just to even put one foot in front of the other. 

I can't really remember life before you were in it.  I remember it being dark, lonely and without hope, but it is all getting a bit vague anymore.  Every day with you is an adventure.  Every day has hope.  Every day is filled with opportunity.  This is an awesome way to live God. 

Not that I don't have my struggles.  You above all know that I do. But I am never alone in the struggle now.  I get to bring it all to you.  I get to bring you my insecurities, my shame, my joy, my everything.  I get to live each moment with you in it.  I love that so much God.  When I feel alone, I can close my eyes and feel you around and in me.  When I feel afraid, I can hear your voice reminding me that you have not given me a spirit of fear but of power and love and a sound mind and I have courage.  When I feel angry and hurt, I can remember what you say about me, how you love me and I am comforted. 

God, life with you is so much better than life without you.  There isn't a scale big enough to measure the difference.  I love you so much!!!

What is on your mind and heart tonight God?  I'm here and ready to hear.

What God Said Tonight;
It isn't important and it isn't the time to wallow in the past.  It is time to look forward.  The past is a great teacher and you have learned so very well.  Take that knowledge into the future and do everything that I have called you to do.  The time for reflection is done.  The time for action is here. 

You are ready to do this next step.  Do you know what it is yet?  I have been telling you but I am not sure that you have heard.  It is big but also the natural progression. 

Don't get too caught up in the day to day that you miss the miraculous.  I have a season of miracles on the way.  Remember to look for them.  Remember to tell people to look for them.  Remember to expect them in every situation.  I am about to do miracles in ways and in places that you have never seen.  Some you have heard about but mostly, these are new miracles for a new season.  It is the season of the miraculous.  Keep an eye out and your ear to the ground.  Stay sensitive to me and I will show you great and wondrous things. 

I love you daughter.  I think you are just about the best there is.  I love that we get to live this life together.  I don't remember life without you either.  I can't because I have always been with you, even before you knew I was there.  I have been with you since the beginning of time and I will be with you forever.  Sometimes I want to wrap you up and keep you in my heart.  But that would be a disservice to your brothers and sisters.  I need you to be my hands and feet.  But, I reserve the right to wrap you up now and then and just love on you.  I reserve the right to a good old fashioned cuddle now and again.  I love you sweetheart.  Get ready for the miracle parade!!

Tuesday, December 7, 2010


My prayer:
Hi Daddy!  I am so TIRED tonight God.  Thank you for bringing me through this day, getting me home, favor on the flights, helping me get the work done that needed to get done and even letting me be a part of Reverb online church tonight.  Today was full!  You are awesome God. 

I feel like I need to talk to you about something though God.  And I don't want to complain but I just don't understand where this was coming from today and how to get rid of it.  All day long, I was remembering embarrassing moments in my life.  Some recent, some from years ago.  They would come out of no where and I would feel immediate shame.  Now, I know that shame is not from you and anything that is not of you is against you.  So, logically these were attacks from the enemy. 

God, have I done anything to let the attacks in?  What do I do to stop them?  I kept trying to shake it off today and just as soon as I stopped thinking about one incident, I would remember another one.  Unfortunately, there are quite a few to remember.  God I ask for your help.

I love you God.  Thank you for being my Dad!

What God Said Tonight:
You heard me as you were typing.  You know how to fight this kind of thing but you did not think of it and did not do it today.  You need to speak my word against those attacks.  When the devil reminds you of shame, you tell him there is no condemnation in Christ.  When the devil tells you that you are nothing, you tell him that you are a royal priesthood.  When the devil tells you that you are worthless, you tell him that I say that you are worth more than rubies and gold. 

His lies cannot stand against the truth.  The shame that he brings cannot stay in the face of my love.  You are what I say you are.  You are perfectly and wonderfully made.  You are my daughter and I will not have you believing that you are less than apple of my eye. 

I love you sweet daughter.  I love you so much.  I get angry when I see him come after you but I need you to fight back with the tools I have given you.  You have reached a level of maturity that you know how to deal with this kind of thing.  If you were still a baby, I would fight it out for you and make him back off.  But you have been trained and prepared and you have got this.

Just remember what I have taught you.  Remember what I say about you.  Do not allow yourself to get caught up in the shame and doubt.  Do not accept those things from him. Don't accept anything from him.  Remember in the prison ministry, the one big rule in all of the facilities was to never give anything or receive anything from the inmates.  That is true of the devil, never GIVE him ANYTHING and never RECEIVE ANYTHING from him.  It is dangerous, so very dangerous when you do. 

I love you sweetheart.  Rest now.  It was a long day but I am glad we got to talk.