Amazing Father. I am feeling a little tired and whiny tonight God but I don't want to whine to you. I have done enough of that in my life.
I don't want to focus on the stuff I don't have tonight, but it keeps popping into my head. I want to stay focused on you and all of the wonderful things you do for me and provide for me. I want to focus on all the amazing things you have done in my life.
It kind of feels like a seesaw in my head and in my heart God. I know that I should, and I want to think on the good things. And, I do for awhile, but then I start thinking about everything that hasn't happened yet, and I get down.
And, now I realize, I am doing something that drives me crazy when other people do it. I tell you I don't want to whine and then I proceed to whine. God I am sorry. You deserve a lot better than me. You are so good. You are so perfect and I am so not. Thank you for loving me anyway. I would be worse than lost without your love.
Ok, shutting up now God. What is on your mind tonight?
What God Said Tonight:
You know that you don't have to be anything for me? You know that I love you just as you are? You know that I cover you in my blood because I don't expect you to be perfect or even good.
I am your God and I am your Father and I love you more than you can imagine. I have such joy waiting for you in the next season. You will have some of the big things that you are missing. You will see dreams fulfilled. You will be amazed at how effortless and wonderful it is. But, wait on my timing.
When you have all of it, when the dream is fulfilled, you will dream a new dream. You will have new desires. I will take care of those too. But realize, just like I said last night, you will always be waiting for something. That is the nature of a life of hope. If you had everything that you wanted right now, you would have nothing to believe me for. You would neglect me. Not on purpose, but you would.
I will shower you with gifts regularly. I will bring people into your life that will bless you beyond belief. I will provide opportunities that are unthinkable to you right now. And, when we have done all of that, we will do more.
Keep your eyes on me. Don't panic unless you see me panic. I love you daughter. Sleep well knowing that I really an in charge of everything and that I love you so very much.
Isaiah 40:27-28 Why would you ever complain, O Jacob, or, whine, Israel, saying, "God has lost track of me. He doesn't care what happens to me"? Don't you know anything? Haven't you been listening? God doesn't come and go. God lasts. He's Creator of all you can see or imagine. He doesn't get tired out, doesn't pause to catch his breath. And he knows everything, inside and out. He energizes those who get tired,
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