I need more...

My prayer:

I want you to be enough for me. Nothing missing and nothing lacking. But I need more. I need more than I have right now. Maybe that means I need more of you. I don't know but I need more. 

I ache God. I feel like what I need is just beyond my fingertips and I can't or won't grab onto it. What is blocking me God?

What God Said Tonight:

I have left a legacy for you . I have left a purpose and a plan for you to live out in whatever way you want to. I have given you gifts and talents with the hope you will use them for my kingdom but I don't require it. 

There are many things that are clamoring for you attention and you time. There are many things that want to take you from me right now. You make the choice. All of it is your choice. I am not a prison warden. I have no desire to shackle you to a path that you do not want. I want to see you running free in the field. I want to see you living out your dreams. I just hope that I am in your dreams. 

I know you want me to lead you and guide you. I know you want me to give the answers that you are missing right now. But, sometimes the journey of discovering the answers is as important as having the answers. I will show you the way. And, if you choose to follow, you will have the answers you seek. You will fill the hole that you feel. 

I could fill the hole tonight. I could fill it right now. But you would be deprived of the experience of seeking and finding the answer that will last the rest of eternity. I want to see you healed fully. I am not interested in band aids. You are so desperate to have the hole filled but the hole makes you humble and vulnerable and that makes you teachable and lovable.