Awesome God. I am not very good at living life. Oh, I am successful and a goal achiever. But when it comes to just living and enjoying life, that I struggle with. One of the reasons I am glad that I never had kids is that means I never forced another human being to live life.
That is really horrible isn't it? I mean life is a gift they tell me. And, in truth, I have had some amazing experiences and known some amazing people. But, at the end of the day, I long for the day that I can be with you in heaven. I long for the day where I am not bombarded with evil every day. It is exhausting and depressing and I have a great desire to run away, but where do you run in a world filled with it?
I am sorry to dump on you tonight God. I am just in a bad place and need some help.
What God Said Tonight:
Thank you for opening your heart. This is not news to me you know. I know you better than you know yourself.
The evil of the world is harder for some of my children than others. You have a great sense of justice and the need for [protection of those who are weaker. You were born with this and your life has nurtured it. It makes living in this world harder for you.
But please know, I need you here, now. I need those who can't let the evil of the world win. I need people who know in their hearts that something is not right. And, I need you to pray. I need you to fight. I need your spiritual weapons to be active and sharp.
Stop numbing yourself to the world and allow that which I put in you to shine. I love you and now is not a time to run, now is a time to stand.