Blind spot...

My prayer:

God, I pray for your help with bitterness and discouragement. I pray for your help with this feeling that nothing will ever be good enough, that I will never be good enough.

I feel like it is surrounding me right now and I pray for your help for me and anyone else who is getting smothered in this.

What God Said Tonight:

You have a blind spot in front of you right now. It is keeping you from seeing the future that I have designed for you.

There are reasons for the blind spot. For now, just know that it is there and that I will remove it when it is time.

I love you. Let my love cover you in this time.

Building time...

My prayer:

I have lots of blessings to count from this day God. THANK YOU! There was that moment...ok moments...early on today where I got really angry and could have held on to that. But, that would have ruined the rest of a great day.

Thank you for giving me the insight to see beyond the immediate irritation. Thank you for helping me out of what could have been an ugly spiral. Thank you most of all for loving and taking care of me.

What God Said Tonight:

The groundwork is laid. The foundation is in place. The building can now begin.

I have given you solid bedrock to build upon. It is sturdy and will not crumble or shift as the stresses come upon it. It will hold firm.

You are released to build. You are released to move forward and find the opportunities that I have been holding for you.

Do not worry about taking the wrong road. Your road, is my road. As long as we are on it together, it has to be right.

I love you now and forever.

First rains...

My prayer: 

I am tired but pretty peaceful tonight God. That feels awfully nice. Peace has been just out of reach for awhile now and I have missed it. I am content in your presence God. I am anxious to hear your voice.

What God Said Tonight:

Fresh, like the first rain of Spring. I will bring a freshness to you and to your life that will exuberate you and energize you again.

Big picture...

My prayer:

Well today was NOT easy but as soon as I turned to you for help, things started turning around. I love how you do that!

I just want to be better at asking sooner instead of waiting until things are so bad.

Thank you for your never ending help. I could not do this without you!

What God Said Tonight:

I need you to remember what is important and what isn't. Your view has gotten very myopic. You are only seeing a few inches in front of your face right now and that is when you miss out on all that I am doing and all the opportunities around you.

Step back and see all that I am doing. Open your eyes to the beauty of the big picture.

Pity party...

My prayer:

I am feeling sorry for myself tonight God and I know that is a complete waste of time and effort. I ask for help to pull out of the spiral that comes with self pity. I ask for your help to see a different perspective on all of this.

What God Said Tonight:

I have seen and experienced everything that you have. I have  been betrayed and I have been used. I have trusted people who turned their back on me. I have been taken for granted and I have been ignored.

If I, Jesus Christ son of the living God experiences these things, why would you be exempt?

These experiences are not a reflection of who you are. The fact that you get rejected does not make you a rejectable person. The fact that you get used by someone does not make you used. You are not what is left after people chip away at you.

You are a child of the Most High God. You are a King's kid. You are a mighty woman of God who hears and knows my voice. You are a miracle walking. You are a voice in the middle of silence and a light in the middle of darkness. You are mine, now and forever and I will show you to the world.

That is who you are. These petty disappointments and revelations of some people around you are only meant to distract you from your true identity in me. Do not let yourself be led astray. Trust my lead and I will take you to the moon and back.

The flesh and the spirit...

My prayer:

Amazing Father. I am grateful for the rest and the guidance you provided this weekend. Thank you for the chance to reconnect with friends and the opportunity to minister. All and all, this was a pretty great weekend. And yet somehow, I feel what is missing more than what I have tonight.

I know it is my fault. I know my perspective is wrong. But knowing that does not make me feel differently. God, I pray for your continued help.

What God Said Tonight:

The flesh is delicate and easily damaged. The flesh is temporary. The flesh is the package that you travel in while on this earth. It is not that important in the overall scheme of it all. But I understand that  to you, right now, it does not feel that way.

I remember what it was to walk in the flesh. I remember hunger and pain. I remember the sting of betrayal and the joy of affection. I remember the comfort of touch. All of those things find different meaning the flesh than they do in the spirit.

I encourage you to look to your spirit and to look to my Spirit in you to see the more eternal connections. The love that never fails. The bond that cannot be broken. I encourage you to keep your eyes focused on your eternity with me and not get too caught up in what your flesh wants today. You won’t miss out on anything that matters, in the long run.

It’s hard. I am not saying that it isn’t hard.

Trusting God in the chaos...

My prayer:

Awesome God, I pray for your peace tonight. Or maybe it is wisdom that I need? I am really not sure. I just know that I feel a little off. Something is not quite right but I can't tell you what it is.

If it is you trying to tell me something, please give me the wisdom to understand and the guidance of what to do. If it is not you, please flood me with your peace.

Thank you Jesus.

What God Said Tonight:

Things are not what they seem right now but I am still in charge. You can trust me to be your guide and your protection.

Things are in a state of flux. There is change on the wind and the change will work for our good, in the end. Trust me as your Father to keep my covering over you as the chaos seems to rain down.

I have got you and I won't let go. I love you now and forever and it will all be for the best in the end. I promise.