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The History: A couple of years ago, I started journaling my prayers and God's responses to them. I told my friends about this, they were really interested. I told my Pastor about it and he said, how about sharing those on line. When I asked God, He said, my words are for you, but not just for you. And, here we are...I hope He speaks to you in these words.
My prayer:
Sweet Father. I am reflecting on your birth more and more as we get closer to Christmas, Imagining what that day was like.
There are a lot of traditional depictions of what it is like. Then there are the people who say that the traditional portrayals are wrong, that the manger was not a "barn" but was the courtyard in the middle of the familial home. There are those that say that Mary and Joseph arrived in Bethlehem the night of your birth and those that say that they had been in Bethlehem for awhile when you were born. All very interesting to ponder.
But, the things I think about are how were Mary and Joseph feeling? Did they completely believe you were the son of God being born in her? Did they have doubts? I mean, it had never happened before. I would think they had to have some level of doubt. Then, when the angels began to sing, the shepherds came to see you, and then the Magi, WOW! That had to confirm for them that something crazy, wonderful, and special was happening.
God, I hope that Mary and Joseph were blessed abundantly for their obedience and willingness. We don't get to hear much about Joseph over the years. Did he have a good life? What was it like to be the earthly "father" of the Son of God the Father? Did he fell honored or did he feel inadequate? What happened to him between the time that we hear about him when you were young and the time you began your ministry. Was he still around?
Then there is Mary. We have always been fascinated with Mary. The mother of God! Almost too much to wrap my mind around. One of my favorite moments with Mary is when after only one question to the angel who just told her that she was going to become pregnant by the Holy Spirit and give birth to the Son of God, the Messiah, she responds, OK, let it be done just as you have said it...Whaaaa? I am trying to imagine that. An angel comes and tells me something that sounds completely crazy and after one minor question of logistics, I say OK...I would love to think I am that obedient, but I don't think I could have done that. I am sure that is a big reason why you picked her, you knew that she could believe it and receive it (as they say).
Well, I have really gone on tonight God. I am simply fascinated by how you accomplished it all. There were a lot of easier ways that you could have come to be our Messiah and savior. Thank you for doing it the way you did. I LOVE YOU!
What God Said Tonight:
I needed to do it just the way that I did. There was no other option that could accomplish all that needed to happen. I needed and wanted to know the experience of life. I needed to understand and experience the joy and the agony of my children.
You have seen that I am a lot angrier more often in the "Old Testament" than I am in the "New Testament." The difference was my experience as a human. Experience breeds compassion. I understand the struggles. I understand so much better now.
I hear you asking, "But are you not all knowing? How or why would you need to learn more about what it is like to live as a human?" It is the difference between head knowledge and heart knowledge. You are right, I know everything. I knew how I created you. I knew how the sin with satan and the apple robbed you of so much that I wanted you to have. I know and knew all of that. I didn't know what it felt like to be betrayed by a friend. I did not know what it felt like to be cold and hungry. I did not know what it felt like to be sick.
Now I know. Now, I won't lose patience with you. Now, I will never stop giving you second chances to get it right. It was my absolute great pleasure to provide salvation for you. And now that i accomplished that, I am ready to wait as long as it takes for you to be all that I intended you to be. I love you daughter. You are precious and exactly what I hoped for.
My prayer:
Thank you God for your favor on my life today. You bless me and I am so grateful! GOD I GIVE YOU ALL THE GLORY AND HONOR FOR EVERY SUCCESS IN MY LIFE. Anything and everything that is good in me or that happens to me is because of you.
God, I understand that hard things happen in this life too. I understand that those things can bring me closer to you and make me stronger, better able to help others. I understand that for those reasons, I should not hate the hard times.
But, I LOVE THE GOOD TIMES!!! I love when you show off and show everyone what they can have and be if they just make a decision to have you in their lives. I love to brag on you. I love to see others brag on you. I love to see people who don't know you yet, get a little uncomfortable, not be able to refute the evidence in their face. LOVE IT!!!
God, I celebrate this most recent success not so much for the success itself, although it was great and very much needed. But, more so, I celebrate this success as a way of everyone around me seeing what your favor can do. I love you God and I don't plan on ever stopping bragging on you. You are too awesome not to brag about!
What God Said Tonight:
You are building your faith on solid rock foundation and not just the foundation, the walls the window casings, all of it is solid rock. You are building a faith that cannot be shaken and cannot be broken. You are building your house of faith to withstand the storm.
I tell you, you will need those walls of stone. The storm that is coming will be violent and raging. You will need the protection and the shelter of stone.
I don't see a roof on your faith. Without a roof, you will get wet in the storm. Finish your faith and you will be fully protected in the storm. Build a roof. I hear you asking me "how?" A roof sits on top of your house (your faith) and is connected but usually overhangs the edges a bit. Your roof is usually bigger than your house. That way, the storm that hits the roof rolls off harmlessly away from the house.
Your roof is your covering. It is the part of your faith that is bigger than what you can believe on your own. Your roof usually involves other people. People who can believe for you, pray for you, teach you. They are above you but not in a haughty way. They are there for your protection. I know authority has always been a struggle for you my daughter. This is different. Their only motivation is to keep you safe in the storm.
I have put the people you need in your life but you need to cultivate the relationships more. You need to be sure your roof is solid and without holes if you are going to stay safe and dry in the storm to come.
I love you daughter. I am sorry for getting parabley on you tonight but sometimes those pictures can say more than words. I love you. Get your roof on.
My prayer:
Amazing Father. I am feeling a little tired and whiny tonight God but I don't want to whine to you. I have done enough of that in my life.
I don't want to focus on the stuff I don't have tonight, but it keeps popping into my head. I want to stay focused on you and all of the wonderful things you do for me and provide for me. I want to focus on all the amazing things you have done in my life.
It kind of feels like a seesaw in my head and in my heart God. I know that I should, and I want to think on the good things. And, I do for awhile, but then I start thinking about everything that hasn't happened yet, and I get down.
And, now I realize, I am doing something that drives me crazy when other people do it. I tell you I don't want to whine and then I proceed to whine. God I am sorry. You deserve a lot better than me. You are so good. You are so perfect and I am so not. Thank you for loving me anyway. I would be worse than lost without your love.
Ok, shutting up now God. What is on your mind tonight?
What God Said Tonight:
You know that you don't have to be anything for me? You know that I love you just as you are? You know that I cover you in my blood because I don't expect you to be perfect or even good.
I am your God and I am your Father and I love you more than you can imagine. I have such joy waiting for you in the next season. You will have some of the big things that you are missing. You will see dreams fulfilled. You will be amazed at how effortless and wonderful it is. But, wait on my timing.
When you have all of it, when the dream is fulfilled, you will dream a new dream. You will have new desires. I will take care of those too. But realize, just like I said last night, you will always be waiting for something. That is the nature of a life of hope. If you had everything that you wanted right now, you would have nothing to believe me for. You would neglect me. Not on purpose, but you would.
I will shower you with gifts regularly. I will bring people into your life that will bless you beyond belief. I will provide opportunities that are unthinkable to you right now. And, when we have done all of that, we will do more.
Keep your eyes on me. Don't panic unless you see me panic. I love you daughter. Sleep well knowing that I really an in charge of everything and that I love you so very much.
My prayer:
Awesome God. I can't think of a single thing to talk about tonight. I love you, that has not changed and I pray it never will. I am grateful for a day of relative peace. I need your help with...well with everything. But that stuff is always true. What is on your mind God? Tell me how your day was. Is there anything you need? Is there anything I can do? Or, if you just need someone to listen, I am here. Whatever you want God.
What God Said Tonight:
I am waiting on a few things. There are some things that need to happen before the new season, so I am waiting.
I can see you making a face, but waiting for me is not as hard as it is for you. My experience of time is different than yours, Your life is but a breath in the grand scheme of time. However, it is a breath that is precious and wonderful to me.
Come and wait with me, keep me company while we wait. Let's enjoy the scenery in the meantime. There are sunsets and flowers to enjoy. There are people to talk to and get to know. There are people to help and to love. There are fun times to be had.
Waiting doesn't mean that life stops. You will always be waiting for something. Don't let it stress you out. I have been waiting for this time since the beginning of time and I am excited for where we are at and where we are going. You are living in a significant time and your life will have significance to eternity.
While we wait, I will protect you, lead you and guide you. I will make sure that you are protected and whole. I love you so much. Wait with me awhile. It won't be too bad. I promise.
My prayer:
God, I not sure what else to say tonight. We have been talking all day as the challenges of this day chased me down and try to bury me. Thank you God that because I can trust in you, they did not win. I sit here tonight in full confidence that you will take care of this latest hassle. I can rest knowing that you will guide me through each step.
Thank you for walking me through this life. I would be so lost without you, literally and figuratively. I will trust in you forever. I will lean on you every day. I am not much but I am a giant killer with you on my side. Talk to me tonight?
What God Said Tonight:
Ha, you always end up identifying with David. He was a man after my own heart as you are.
You don't know what you avoided simply by trusting me today. I know the circumstances did not look so good, but satan had a much worse plan for this day. Your trust, your faith, your belief that I will take care of you no matter what, stunted his plans. It kept his plans from having the outcome that he had hoped for. He is pretty irritated tonight.
Trust me and I will move mountains for you. I will make sure you succeed. I will prosper you beyond your imagination. Trust me and the world is yours. I will give you an inheritance that you did not earn but is yours because I love you and you are covered by blood. You are adopted to me in my blood. You are the child of my heart and I love you more than I can tell you.
Today was truly a good day. I know you don't see it just yet, but trust me, it was a good day. I love you. Rest now. I have got this.
My prayer:
Wow God, I don't even know what to say. I have no words. Prayer and Worship with the gang tonight was beyond anything I have ever known. Thank you for your anointing. Thank you for the prophecies. Thank you for the visions. Thank you most of all for using 5 month old "J" to lay hands on "D" for healing. I have never seen anything like that. He stretched his little hand out and laid it flat on "D"'s foot for 10 minutes without moving! It was crazy wonderful God! You can use anybody. ANYBODY!
God thank you for the message on being a vessel for you. Thank you God for the vision of the vessel as a clear, white tube with nothing blocking you flowing through us. Thank you God!!!! AMAZING!!! I love you beyond measure.
What God Said Tonight:
You are welcome my daughter. I told you tonight would be special. You created an atmosphere to allow me to move. That is all I really need. Just an open door. Just a willing vessel. Just a opportunity and a little bit of faith. That is all I need.
I don't need a lot of hoopla. I don't need people with fancy degrees. I don't need cameras, although they are good documentation for later. All I need is a little bit of space and an opportunity.
Make space for me and I will do remarkable things in your life. Don't get so crowded and clogged up that you plug up my ability to flow through you. Roto rooter your vessel once in a while to clear out the clogs and I will run free and strong through you.
I am desperate to pour out my love on the world before it is too late. I am ready to flood the world with love. I need to do it through you. I need to do it through the people who already know me. Let me flow through you. let me release my love on the world through you. Now is the time and you are the right person. All is set into place. Let's do it.
My prayer:
My God. My Lord. My teacher. My Father. My Savior. My provider. My peace. My joy. My healer. My everything. You are mine and I am all yours. As we get closer to the celebration of your birth on earth I want to take a minute tonight to recognize that we belong to each other.
You created me and then you bought and paid for me with your blood. I am clearly yours. And, you are mine...because...well, because you are. You are my everything. You created me. You love me. You protect me. You make sure that I have every last thing I need. I choose you. You are mine. And that is it.
That is all that matters. My God, in the craziness around me, you are mine and I am yours. In the tragedy that I see around me, you are mine and I am yours. You are my island of sanity in the middle of insanity.
I am so glad that we belong to each other. What a paltry word for it God "glad". I am out of my mind with gratefulness. I don't have a word for how grateful I am. God, let's get all your kids together and live above the yuck, the sin, that leaches throughout this world. You and us God. I am ready. Let's get on with it. I love you with everything I have that is capable of love.
What God Said Tonight:
Where do you want to go? As long as we are together and you keep your eyes on me, peace is yours. My perfect will is yours. The only time you get caught up in the craziness and the sin is when you get your eyes off of me. We can live in paradise right here and right now. All we need is each other. My family together is all we need. Loving each other.
I hate when you fight each other. Such a waste. Sometimes you sound like two kids in the backseat of the car fighting over who got over on the others' side. Such a waste of time.
Love on each other. Love people. I know it can be hard. They have their issues and you have yours. But love anyway. It is that love, the love for no reason, that will create the beautiful place that you dream of. That will create heaven here on eaerth.
Love your way through. I will always love you. I won't ever stop. Learn to love with a tenacity that won't let go. Love it out.
