Say yes...

My prayer:
What an amazing day God! Not anything like I expected when I woke up this morning but really, wow!

Thank you for the miracle healing you performed at church this morning! I LOVE SEEING YOU HEAL PEOPLE!!!

Thank you for all of the new opportunities you are bringing into my life! Thank you for doing the new thing and taking me to the next level! I was a little freaked out at first when I was talking with Pastor Mark this am and realized that the next level, the new thing, was going to be WAY outside of my comfort zone. But then, Pastor Don reminded me that you had said, in this blog, that you were going to do a new thing and that I told you I was ready...one down side of this blog, I now have 100+ accountability partners! But seriously God, I love it! Thank you!

I never could have imagined how amazing this experience would be when you told me to start it up 3 weeks ago. Not only have I gotten closer to you but the way you are blessing the people who are reading this is beyond words. I can't thank you enough. I can't celebrate you enough. I can't worship you enough. I can't praise you enough.

God, that you use someone like me to get your message out there is a miracle in itself. That you speak to us and love us so much is beyond a miracle, if that is possible, and even if it isn't. Loving you more every day!

What God said tonight:
Blessed and highly favored. My children are blessed and highly favored. Sometimes you can miss the blessing when it is mixed in with struggle and pain. The struggle makes you stronger, the pain can make you weak. Let me heal the pain and you continue to resist in the struggle. You will get stronger. You will accomplish all that I have for you.

Your dream has been to hear well done good and faithful servant. You have already made it. You have already done what I have called you to do. You have more to do of course. Otherwise, there would be no purpose for you to remain on earth. But in this season, you don't have to strain so hard. You don't have to work so hard at it. It will flow like the water over the rocks you saw today. I told you at the river today that this next thing was going to be SO EASY. It seems overwhelming right now, but once you start it will be so easy.

That is how it is with me. The hard part is saying yes. the rest is easy. Just continue to say yes to me and see what we accomplish. Continue to say yes and see what we can do.

Your in a place of blessing now my child. You are looked on with favor because you are my child. People see you and they see more than a woman. They see a child of the Most High God. They see me through you. Keep being my billboard. You are a great advertisement for my glory to be had here on earth.

I love you baby girl. Wait till you see what we have for tomorrow!

The blessing and the cursing...

My Prayer:

Awesome ruler, Mighty God. Thank you for this day. I felt pretty lazy today God. I didn't accomplish what I had planned to but enjoyed being able to relax and spend time with family.

I was just reading in Joshua tonight where you, he and the army of Israel come into the promised land and conquer and kill everyone they run into. Sometimes I fell like that, like I just can't lose. Sometimes I feel like you are so on my side that everything I touch just works. But, other times, it feels like everything I touch falls apart. Everything I try to do just fails.

Usually, I can't tell the difference, what I am doing differently during these two times. I could understand if I was living right and getting blessed or if I was sinning and I was getting cursed. That makes sense. But sometimes, when I know that I am doing things outside of your will, when I know I am sinning, I am still getting blessed. And sometimes, when I am doing everything I know to do to follow your will, it seems like I am cursed and nothing is going right. Not all of the time, but sometimes.

I see similar things in the lives around me and I don't know what to say or how to help. Sometimes, people are really doing all they know to do and their life just seems to be falling apart. I know you have said to just love them, and I do, I am. But, is there anything else. Anything that makes sense out of it all. I like it when things make sense.

I pray God that your magnificent presence be experienced in your church services throughout the world tomorrow. I pray your will be accomplished in each and every service. I pray God for our service at Zyxter. I pray that you show us even more aspects of you. I pray that you show us something new and amazing leaving us in awe. I thank you for surprise annointings and blessings. In Jesus name.

What God said tonight:

Hi my daughter. Your thoughts are somewhat muddled tonight but I think I hear your true question. No, life doesn't always make sense to your rational human brain. If it all made sense, you wouldn't have needed me. If it could all be done by following rules, you would never have needed my son. The law would have been enough.

But sometimes, you need undeserved grace. Sometimes you need blessings when you are messing up the worst to remind you that I am here and I love you. Sometimes you need to miss out on blessings even though you are getting things right to make sure you trust me and not your own obedience. Sometimes I have to hold back those blessings so you remember who the blessings are from. Sometimes I have to hold back the blessings so you strive for even greater levels of intimacy.

So you see, it does all make a certain kind of sense, not a legalistic, law abiding kind of sense, but a love abiding kind of truth. You are tired and should rest for tomorrow but thank you for meeting with me anyway. Your service will be blessed. I am doing a new thing tomorrow that will blow you mind. I love you I love you I love you!

Open your eyes...

My prayer:
Compassionate God. Mighty father. How are you tonight? Was it a good day for you? Did anyone do anything that pleased you today. Did any of us do anything to make you smile?

Thank you for the "small" opprotunities today to be a blessing. Thank you for letting me be there when the older gentleman needed help with the computerized building directory. Thank you for letting me see and talk with the homeless man who is usually on the corner of Broadway and 8th. He always has the most amazing positive attitude. I hadn't seen him for a few weeks and was worried. He says he is doing good, but he always says he is doing good, and he didn't look good today. God, let me know what more I can do for him. What would be the most help to him?

I am betting there were many more opportunities today that I missed. Forgive me for missing opportunities and help me to see them better tomorrow. Sometimes I see these amazing people who have given their whole lives to you and serving you. They go into the poorest and most dangerous areas and love on the people with a pureness and without fear. I want to be more like that.

I want to be more aware of the needs around me and better able to meet them. Even this last Sunday, it took someone else to point out to me the woman who had been sitting alone with no one talking to her. I didn't even notice her until he pointed her out to me and asked me to get to know her. She was so surprised that someone actually came to talk to her. It made me feel really small that I hadn't noticed her on my own. Help me God to be more aware.

Thank you for today God. I love you!

What God said tonight:
This is a turning point tonight. You have asked the right things. You are beginning to understand the point of all of this. It isn't about you. Much as I love you, it isn't about you. It never was. It is about being the blessing that you want to see in your own life. It is about showing my love and compassion to everyone you run across.

That was the main point of my son's life. Not his death but of his life. He spent time with people that no other self respecting Jew would have spent time with. He spent time with the "despicable" people, the prostitutes, the tax collectors, the Samaritans. He spent his time with people that no one else noticed or cared about. It so easy to love the beautiful people. It takes effort to notice the invisible people. And yet, they are often the people in the most need of a kind word, a compliment, a meal or a hug. Keep your eyes open, your ears open and your heart open and I will help you to see those who are unseen. I will help you to show true compassion and meet the true underlying needs in each person.

You will be a blessing to all of those around you but it will take some work on your part. It will take some commitment on our part. I know you are up for it though. You were made for this stuff!!

You know my love for you. You know that I will help you every step of the way. I will never leave you or forsake you and I will guide you always, I promise. Sleep well my daughter.