Highs and lows...

My prayer:
My God. I woke up confused, drug myself through the day only to come home and realize that I had not been grateful or given you the credit for all of the amazing things you are doing and felt guilty again. Pushed that all aside and enjoyed the evening. Now I am here and I don't know what to say. 


Life is such a roller coaster right now. The highs are SO HIGH and the lows are SO LOW. Someone once told me that ministry, working for you, God, is like that. I am not sure I believed him then but I do now. 


But, the fact is, I can't do anything but serve you. I can't live one day without you in it. I can't survive unless I am doing all that I can to accomplish your will here on earth. It is who I am. It is the core of me. To love you and to serve you. That is all that I know. I have no life without you and serving you. 


I am all yours God and I am grateful that you allow me to be a part of what you are doing. I am done complaining and whining. I am done worrying about...I am done worrying. I will trust you and I will follow you. If I get it wrong, correct me. I am all yours, always have been and always will be. I love you my God and Lord.


What God Said Tonight:
I called you to this life from the beginning of time. My call, my purpose on your life was ordained from the beginning of time. That is why the pull you feel is so strong; but, you do have a choice. You always have a choice. I will never force you into anything. 


I can promise you that this call on your life will not be easy. But, I can also promise you it will always be worth it. I can promise you that you will have struggles, disappointments, and want to give up sometimes. But I can also promise you that I will renew your strength every time. I can promise you that I will never take you somewhere that I haven't already given you the skills and gifts to handle what is coming at you. I can promise that the blessings will always outweigh the pain in the end. I can also promise that we win. In the end, we always win. 


Make your choice daily my sweet dear. It is a choice. I can hear you thinking that the alternative is a worthless life. I happen to agree. But then again, I know your future. I know what we can accomplish together. I know what miracles and truly unbelievable things that you are going to be witness of. You can't see all of that yet. You will have to trust me. 


Know that I will ALWAYS choose you. Every day for the rest of eternity, I will always choose you. I am so blessed and so proud when I see you choose me when it is the hard choice. I love it when I see you choose me even though the other way is easier. I love it when you choose me when the people around you are not choosing me. It makes my heart overflow. 


I love you daughter. Keep choosing me and this life with the highs and the lows and I will make sure that you always succeed in the end. I will make sure that you are the head and not the tail. I will make sure that you are above and not beneath. I will make sure that every good thing that I have for you is yours. I love you and I will keep you strong and safe.