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The History: A couple of years ago, I started journaling my prayers and God's responses to them. I told my friends about this, they were really interested. I told my Pastor about it and he said, how about sharing those on line. When I asked God, He said, my words are for you, but not just for you. And, here we are...I hope He speaks to you in these words.
My prayer:
Mighty God, I am a bit of a mess. You warned me not to get caught up in what people think of me and to focus on what you think of me. I heard you, but I am not doing a very good job of it.
There are so many expectations right now and I don't want to let anyone down. I don't want to but I feel like I am. I feel like I am letting everyone down including you. I feel like I am not enough. I am feeling like a big disappointment.
Ok, I don't mean to have a pity party, but it is where I am at tonight God and I need your help to do what you have told me to do. I need your help to focus on who I am to you and in you. I need your help to follow your lead and not get confused by the millions of things I could be doing.
I need you God. I am out of my comfort zone in a big way and feeling pretty scared and vulnerable. I place it all in your hands and at your feet God. Please help.
What God Said Tonight:
What is different today from yesterday? You think you failed today. You think you let people down. What evidence do you have for this? Your entire struggle tonight is born and bred inside of you. You have allowed lies in and it is tearing you up.
If you think logically, you know what I am saying is true. You let some lies in and they have grown beyond what you were ready for. Now they are filling you and eating away at you. Lies will do that. They are prolific and they multiply with very little effort. Satan lies because it is such a good weapon. All he needs to do is put one false word into you and that can grow like a fast growing cancer to take over you entire existence.
So, treat it like the cancer that it is. I have shown you how to pray against cancer. You have to pray that it is killed a the root, torn out at the root, and cast into the pit of hell. Pray that over the lies and I will take them from you. I will leave with you the truth. I will leave with you the proper reflection of who you are and who you are about to be.
I will wash you clean each day. I will wrap you in my very own swaddling cloths. I will comfort you in distress and I will strengthen you in time of battle. I will heal you in sickness and I will guide you in times of indecision and doubt. I will be your God, your Father and your teacher forever. I am yours and you are mine.
I don't have worthless children. My children are precious and holy. My children will inherit this earth. My children are a royal priesthood. You are my child and I will remind you as much as you need me to of who you truly are. But sweep away the lies so you can hear it clearly and believe. I love you daughter. This was a momentary hiccup. You are bound for the future I have determined for you and it is good. I promise.
My prayer:
Awesome father! What a difference a day makes!! Thank you for rest and for renewing my strength! I was so completely tired out last night but then you gave me a full night's rest (been awhile since I have had one of those!), great fun with Mom today, more rest and a great movie...I feel ready to take on the world!
So much so, I am having a hard time thinking about going to sleep tonight. I want to go, run, do something somewhere, anywhere! I feel trapped and restless. It use to be, when I would feel this way, I would take off on a drive and do my best to get lost. That is a whole lot more difficult with GPS! But, I don't think that would really cut it anyway. I want to go and do something. I want to do something for you, just because.
I guess I will need to wait until tomorrow. There should be plenty of opportunities with church and everything tomorrow. God I ask for opportunities to bless you and your people tomorrow. I pray God that you show me the outlet for the amazing renewed energy and strength that you have given me.
I love you so much God. I truly cannot imagine life without you and I don't want to try. I am all yours God!
What God Said Tonight:
What you seek is here for the taking. You can serve me in your thoughts and your actions. You can bless me with your words as well as with what you do.
You don't need to change the world, you just need to do that one small thing I have asked of you. You know the one. You know the thing that I asked that you are still working on. I know it takes time but you also know how to get this stuff done. A little each day and before you know it, there it is.
I love you so much and you bless me just by being with me. You will have great opportunities to serve me and my people tomorrow. I count on you to continue to be faithful. I plan things around your faithfulness. I am able to do more because I know you will do your part. So I will always give you opportunities. Continue to balance, keep the sabbath for your rest, and do a little each day so we can do the thing I have asked you to do.
I love you. I will continue to renew and refresh you. I will continue to provide you with opportunities. I will continue to walk with you through it all. I am God and I do not change. I am forever what I was in the beginning. I am forever the lover of your soul and the Father who loves you more than my own life. I will always love you and take care of you. I do not change and I do not lie. I am forever in the place of your forgiveness and your redemption.
I am forever here waiting for you to call on me. I am always ready to bless you and to hear your cries. I am never deaf to your voice. I will always hear you. I keep a part of me always alert for your voice. You don't have to shout, I hear you. You don't have to beg, I love you. You don't have to worry, I have got you. Sleep if you can and we will do more tomorrow together my love.
My prayer:
Mighty God, thank you for your favor during the meeting today. You always take care of me God. I am so completely grateful to you. I am nothing but you destine me to succeed every time. You are so amazing. God I am not worthy but I am grateful.
God I feel like I haven't really sat and talked to you about what is on my heart in awhile. I have been so tired by the end of the day, all I can do is be grateful for what you have done and I don't have a lot of time or energy to think or talk much beyond that.
Fact is that life remains pretty amazing right now. I am busy but happy. I am tired but it is the tired that comes from honest work. I am not getting everything done that I want but I am getting a lot done.
And, fact is, everything I need, you provide. Every time I pray, you are there waiting. Every time I need you for me or for someone else, you show up and show out. How could I ask for more than that? I love you God and I love this season we are in. Thank you for life and for the blessings you are pouring out on me.
What God Said Tonight:
I want you to know something. I want you to hear something. It is something I have told you before. It is something that you have learned the hard way before. Tonight I don't want you to learn the hard way, I want you to listen to me so you can adjust before there are consequences.
You are more than your accomplishments. You don't have to "do anything" for me. You don't have to do anything for my love. I appreciate your service. I appreciate that you want to do things for me but your worth is never based on that.
You talk of being unworthy and it is true. But my son came and sacrificed so you could be worthy. If you don't accept your worth in him it is as if he died for nothing. I need you to focus on who you are in Christ. I need you to get your focus off your accomplishments. I need you to get your eyes off of the approval of others.
You are falling back into the performance trap and I can't afford to let you. I need you too much. I need you to know who you are in my son. I need you to see your reflection as clearly as I see you.
You have been looking in a distorted mirror again, just like the funny mirrors at the circus. You have been looking in a distorted mirror but you think it is real. You are not what others say about you. You are not what have done or what you have accomplished.
You are a precious child of the most high God. You are a royal priesthood. You are a blood bought daughter who's life is so precious to me I sacrificed my own son to have you. I laid down my life that you could have yours. Now that you are redeemed and washed clean of your sin, stop seeing it as a part of you. Stop looking to others to validate who you are and your worth. Look in the clear reflection of my Word and see who you really are.
I love you and I want you to remember your position through my son. I want you to remember your authority that I have given you. I need you to remember those things and not the circus mirror reflection. You are who I say you are. You are successful because I have told you that you are above and not beneath, the head and not the tail.
See me in you and see clearly. I love you daughter. You need to rest tomorrow and recenter. Get this right and the rest comes easy.
My prayer:
Awesome God, Father, Lord and teacher. God I am pooped tonight! So much happening today, it is kind of a blur. But, I love you and I don't ever want to miss our night time together. Ending my day with you is perfect. Starting my day with you is perfect. Spending my day with you is perfect.
God I pray and ask for your favor tomorrow. I have another important meeting tomorrow and I need your help. Thank you God for blessing the work of my hands.
What is on your mind tonight God? If you want to talk about anything, I am here. I love you Daddy.
What God Said Tonight:
Bet you thought that today would never end. All things end except our life together. Hard times end. Good times end. Challenges end and blessings end. Everything in this world is temporal except for you and me. You , your brothers and sisters and me are eternal. All else is temporary.
Part of why I tell you not to worry is because whatever you are worried about today, will not be there tomorrow, or maybe the day after. All things change, except my love for you. All things have a season except for our relationship. We are the constants in a world, an existence of constant change.
You will always know and trust me. I will be your home base forever. I will be your safe home for ever. I will be yours forever. Don't get lost in thoughts and worry over the temporary. Keep you mind focused on the permanent, the unchanging, keep your mind on me.
I will be the stability in the chaos. I will be the guide in the storm. I will be the zip line in the blizzard. I am your true north and I will guide you through this constantly changing world.
I love you daughter. Rest and prepare for more tomorrow. There is much left to do this week. There are things that you have put off that need your attention. Rest and I will give you the time you need, tomorrow. Sleep sweetly.
My prayer:
My God I am so grateful tonight. Grateful for your healing power and you healing the cold that was after me this morning.
Grateful for you answering prayers for jobs and provision for friends. Grateful that you have filled my life with amazing, smart, beautiful and loving people.
Grateful that you continue to lead, guide, protect, teach and forgive me when I get it all wrong.
Grateful that you have planted me in a home church that loves you above everything else, no religion, no extra rules, just you and your word.
Grateful that you have given me a safe and warm home to live in. Grateful for the smartest cat in the world to keep me company.
Grateful for an amazing mom who loves me no matter what. Grateful for reconciling me with the rest of my family.
Grateful for the opportunities to serve you. Grateful for the ability to worship you freely.
Grateful for you. So very grateful for you.
What God Said Tonight:
Your life is a beautiful dance right now. Dance with me my daughter. Dance with me. The music is beautiful, the setting is perfect and the steps we take together are in perfect sync with each other.
The dance we dance is a joy to us and a joy to watch. The dance we dance is for others as much as it is for us. Our dance is a dance of intimacy and of joy. Our dance is a dance of communion and of celebration.
Dance with me through life. Dance with me forever. I will lead, stay in sync with me and we will create such beauty as you cannot imagine. I love you my sweet dance partner.
My prayer:
Awesome God, you made my way prosperous today! Thank you for the successful meetings today. I love the way you bless the works of my hands. You are so amazing. Everything I do in your name is blessed!
I am so grateful for all that you do God. You are everything. What more can I do for you God? How can I let you know how much you mean to me. They sang "More than words" at church on Sunday and I keep thinking about that. I tell you I love you all of the time but do I show you enough? Do I show you that I love you the way that you show me every day?
What can I do to show you God? What can I do so you feel my love for you like I feel your love for me? Maybe I can't, I mean you are God and I am not. Maybe you have to be God to show someone that kind of love? I don't know but if there is more that I can do, something different that I can do that will better show my love for you, tell me and I will do it. They are just words but, I love you God!
What God Said Tonight:
Words are good. I like it when you tell me you love me, just like you like it when I tell you, but actions are more meaningful.
Your heart is shown in how you spend your time, what you think about and where you invest yourself. Every time you choose to be with me, to serve me, to serve my people, you are showing me your love.
You must remember though that you cannot earn my love nor do you need to. My love for you is unconditional and is not effected by your behavior or your actions. I loved you when you were knee deep in sin and couldn't see a way out. I loved you before you were born. I love you now and I will love you forever. My love for you does not change. My love for you is constant and everlasting. My love for you is greater than any ocean and deeper than any valley. I will never leave you.
Your actions, the ways you show me love do not effect my love for you but they do make me feel good. And, more importantly, they keep you on track. Doing the things that are good for you, things that will make your own way prosperous, things that make you the person you were intended to be.
When you want to know what to do to show me love, look at the things my son did and do that. You can never go wrong when you use him as your model. That saying you have now of What Would Jesus Do? is a good one. Ask it and then copy him. I will know you love me and you will be blessed. I want you to be fully confident in my love for you, never doubt and never wonder. It is the one constant that you never have to question. I love you now and forever, no matter what. It is complete.
My prayer:
Awesome God and lover of my soul. God I love you and I am so grateful that you love me. Here we are on Valentines Day, my second least favorite day of the year.
God, I don't mean to be ungrateful. I do so appreciate your love for me. I am so grateful for how you show me that love every day. I am so grateful for the amazing people you have put in my life that show me love every day. All of that is entirely true and most of the time I can focus on that.
But once in awhile, especially on a day like this, I can't help thinking of what I don't have. I can't help but wonder if that husband you have talked to me about is ever really going to show up. It makes me wonder, maybe I am not good enough. Maybe there is too much stuff in me that is messed up. Maybe I am not cut out for marriage. Maybe what I have today, you, amazing friends and family is what I will have for the rest of my life. Is it enough? Sometimes.
Above all God, your will be done. Your love truly is better than any love that exists. I would rather have your love and no one else's than have the love of the whole world without your love.
What God Said Tonight:
What is this my love? Why are you letting pressure of the world system make you doubt my purpose and plan for your life? What is Valentines Day? It is not a celebration that I called for although I like the idea of celebrating love.
Love is inherently good and it is a absolute necessity for your life. I am love and you were made in my image. Your very existence requires love. You are my love displayed on the earth. You are the expression of my love to my people. You are surrounded by so much love that it blankets you.
You will have all of the love you dream of. There is still time. You will not want for any good thing. I love you and I will make sure that you are loved every minute of every day. Experience the love that is with you now and know that there is more to come.
You know the promise I have given you. Do not doubt it, especially not because of external pressure. My promise is real. My love is real. My purpose for you is real. Valentines Day, not so much. Rest in my love my precious child and remember what counts.
