The shape of struggle...

My prayer:

Well God, a whole lot of things went wrong today but nothing that couldn't be fixed. I guess that is the silver lining of it all. Thank you for having the solution to every problem.

God, I ask for more joy, peace, love, purpose and power for me and for the wonderful people you have put in my life.

What God Said Tonight:

It is not so much about the struggle as it is about who you are through the struggle. I will pull you out of every bad situation. I will always bring you out. Who will you be while you are waiting for me? Who will you allow the circumstances to turn you into.

You have heard it before, I am truly more concerned about your character, about who you are and that you be the best you than most anything else. I created you for such great things and I want you to experience them all.

Don't let the struggles mold you into someone you were never meant to be. Keep the shape I gave you. Keep the character I gave you. Keep you, you. I love you. 

Finding contentment...

My prayer;

Wonderful Father. Thank you for a successful day. Thank you especially for your protection over me the last couple of days. There have been quite a few close calls and you have brought me through safe and sound.

I really do not want to be a whiner, but you do say to talk to you about everything. The thing is, I am thoroughly discontent. Nothing horrible is happening. I simply want more. More purpose, more meaning, more love, more you, I want more.

I am so grateful for all that you have given me. Truly, my life is blessed and I feel ungrateful and spoiled to even say this; but, that is where I am at.

I lay this down God and ask for your help.

What God Said Tonight:

I hate to tell you this but you will likely feel discontent more than a few times in our life. You are living in a world that is not your home. You are living n a world that is fallen from grace and you are covered by my grace. Your discontent is real and is partially evidence of you being in this world but not of it.

I can help you. I  can give you more. I can help you to find contentment in me in the midst of your discontent. I can make it better.

But the root of it is, you are misplaced for awhile.

Know, that for this time, I need you where you are. I will call you home when it is time and then you will find the sweet contentment and fullness that you desire. Until then, let me fill you, let me be your  contentment. I love you.

Don't hold back...

My prayer:

Today was a wonderful day of family and celebration of your resurrection Jesus. Thank you for all you have done and all that you do for us, for me.

What God Said Tonight:

What you are not saying is speaking volumes tonight my child. Your questions are clear even though they are silent.

Don't hold back with me. Don't think, ever, that I am too busy or too big to care about your worries. Talk to me about anything. Ask me anything.

The things we talk about are things we can deal with, together. The things you keep inside are the things you wall me out of. I can't help unless you let me in. But, if you do let me in, I promise I will help.

Try me, trust me, I am here for you.

The BIG mistake...

My prayer:

Awesome God. I need you. I need your help. Guide me, direct me, help me to see, do and follow what you have for me. Without your help, I am likely to mess everything up.

What God Said Tonight:

My grace is sufficient for you my child. I have grace enough to cover you and every mistake you could ever make.

I will guide you. I will help you. I will give you the knowledge and understanding you need. However, when you get it wrong, my grace is sufficient.

I died so that your mistakes are not held against you. I died so that you are covered.

Do your best, listen to my guidance, but know that when it doesn't go well, when you make that big mistake, and everyone does, my grace covers you.

I love you now and forever my child.

Good Friday...

My prayer:

Thank you Jesus for your willingness. It kind of hit me tonight in a way it never has before. Not only did you die for us, but you did it so willingly.

You knew the torture you were going to experience and you walked into it willingly. You knew how messed up we were and you and you died, willingly, anyway. You knew they were going to torture, humiliate and do everything they could to discredit you and you went willingly.

Thank you seems so paltry but it is the only words I have.

What God Said Tonight:

I struggled. Remember I was also a man and part of me was filled with dread at the coming pain and torture. I  struggled with it so hard that I sweat blood.

But, when my Father said go, I knew it was my purpose and my destiny to go. I knew that was what love would do.

I have no regrets. I willingly obeyed my Father for your sake and I am grateful that I did. It means we get to know each other now and forever. I get to be brother and savior to man and that is a truly wonderful thing.

I love you. I did it for you. It wasn't easy. Nothing worth so much could ever be easy. I love you.

Consulting with God...

My prayer:

So many thoughts running through my head tonight God but I am not sure any of them warrant us talking about them. Primarly, I am simply thankful tonight, for you and for everything. Can't wait to hear what you want to talk about tonight...

What God Said Tonight:

You are at a disadvantage. The spiritual realm is powerful and constantly interacting with you but you can only see it in a prism of what it actually is, at best. You see reflections and you see pieces but you are seldom able to see clearly.

This disadvantage makes you dependent on me, which is not a bad thing. Don't forget to ask me and consult with me to understand the spiritual ramifications and background to what is happening in our life. It will often be so helpful for you to understand what otherwise make no sense.

I am here for you always my sweet child. Let me interpret that which you cannot see to make sense of what you can see.

I love you so very much.

Love in the middle of darkness...

My prayer:

Dear God. I am tired. Tired of the truly horrible things that seem to be happening every minute these days. Beheadings, crucifixions, people burying children alive, cancer, and so much more. I am tired of the evil.

I need to find some good to look at and focus on. I need to find a reminder that you are all powerful and you win in the end.

Right now, it is all a bit too much and I am tired of it.

What God Said Tonight:

I know this time is not easy. My heart breaks at the torment. I am busier than I have ever been comforting, healing and caring for my children.

But that doesn't mean you can stop. That doesn't mean you can stop trying, loving, caring for people around you. I know it is exhausting at times, facing evil, but you can't stop. I count on you to be my hands and feet. I count on you to show my love in the middle of darkness.

Your strength is not enough but mine is. Your will is not enough but mine is. Rely on me, rest in me, let me strengthen you to fight another day.

I am yours and you are mine, forever. You will show my light in the world at it's darkest.