The purpose of life...

My prayer:
Incredible God, you are incredible! What a great small group again tonight. What amazing insights you gave us! What amazing insight you gave me God! I love this idea of combining what you have gifted me with and taught me about effective training together with ministry. I can so clearly see the type of active interaction that we had at the presentation last week, in a "church" type setting where we are training people how to live for you. Not preaching, but that interactive, polling, hands on exercise type of training that leaves people with new skill sets. This could be huge God! I LOVE IT and LOVE YOU for showing me!

I am excited about this one God! Keep showing me the details and show me the next step. I think this could be really powerful and important for your kingdom and you know I would love doing it. Wow, very cool God!

You are so incredible. You were right last night. I closed a door on thinking about "training" combined with ministry because it wasn't working out when I went the traditional route. But with this idea, let's open that door back up God! I am ready to jump in!!

Love you!!!

What God said tonight:
You make me smile. I love seeing you so enthusiastic. Thanks for paying attention.

This is a great time to begin new things. This is a great time to follow your passion. Your preparation has been long, or has seemed long to you, but it is worth it.

Can I tell you something? It's not hard to understand and walk in your purpose. It is actually the easiest thing in the world. You were made for it. What is hard is getting over the fear, getting over the fears. Fear of failure and fear of success. When you bust through that and step out into your purpose, it all comes together. I will never let you fall. I am your safety net and you can rely on me to always have your back.

The question tonight of, "If you knew that God would prosper you no matter what you chose to do, what would you attempt?" That is a really important question. When you get the answer, run with it because I have promised you that I will prosper you. I put dreams in you for a purpose greater than just seeing you fulfilled, although I love seeing you fulfilled. Your dreams are there for others and for what they can accomplish for others. You will live out your purpose so others can discover theirs. It is an ongoing chain. Everyone who discovers and lives out their purpose will do so in order that others will discover and live out their purpose and so on and so on. It is the point of this life.

Each path is different. There is a lot to do and I need people working and helping in so many areas. But the common thread is that it is all ordained and planned by me to work together for the good of those who love me and are called according to my purpose. When it is all working together, when you are all working together, it is an amazing tapestry that can move mountains.

I love you daughter. Maintain this enthusiasm. I will give you next steps. It will seem so simple and easy you will wonder why you didn't do it sooner, but now is the right time. I love you, did I mention that already? Probably, but I love you still. Sleep and rest for tomorrow, if you can!

Content...

My prayer:
Lord God of all creation. Father, teacher and saviour. Redeemer kinsman and healer. God you are so many things and I have only begun to understand you. It would take an eternity to truly comprehend all that you are. Luckily, we have and eternity together!

I love you God. Thank you for your patience with me. Thank you for always encouraging me. Thank you for understanding exactly what I need, exactly when I need it. I love you God and that love is enough. I am content in you. I rest in the love and promise that you are. I am confident that you will accomplish every last thing that you have planned in my life.

God I am your servant and happy to be serving you. Thank you for opportunities to serve. God, thank you for bringing one of my bosses to me today asking for prayer for her brother. You have already heard that prayer God and I thank you in advance for the praise report. What an honor that instead of getting in trouble at work for being so open about my love for you and my faith, one of my bosses actually comes to me for prayer! That is your favor!

Mighty God, we really are your church. Not the place we go on Sunday (or Saturday or Wednesday) but we, ourselves, are your living and active church. Very cool. I love you Father. What is on your mind tonight?

What God said tonight:
It is here and now. The time is here and now. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow will always be there but right here and right now, there is a preciousness to this moment. It will never come again and is gone before we know it. Each moment is precious. Cherish each moment for the gift that it is. I know it doesn't always feel like a gift or at least it doesn't always feel like a good gift, but it is. Let's just rest and enjoy this moment together.

I miss you when you are all tied up in your issue or problem. It makes it hard for you to see or hear me sometimes. It is better when you are at peace and content. Then I don't have to shout but can relax with you and talk.

It was a great day in the kingdom. Lots of people made the decision to live with me forever and we are rejoicing and partying in heaven tonight. We are so overjoyed! There is nothing better than when one of my kids come home.

You are not as stressed, angry and confused as you have been. Thank you for letting go and trusting me. You won't regret it. I love you like sunshine. You are bright reflection of me and I thank you for shining wherever you go. I will always protect you. I will always make sure that when you are standing up for me, I will stand up for you.

Funny, I don't really want to talk more tonight, I just want to be with you. Can we just sit for awhile and be in each other's presence? Can we just be content to know we are together and nothing will ever change that. Rest your head girl and know that I am God and love you more than you can ever understand. Let my love wash over you tonight and abide with me. Live with me. Love me. And I will love and live with you. Receive the blessing of me tonight. Let it fall from heaven and cover you from head to toe.

I love you so much and want so much for you. Will you receive it? There are opportunities that I am trying to bring you right now but you not paying proper attention. I will prosper and direct you but follow my lead. Love, love, love you. Think about the closed doors in your life and ask, did I close them or did you? If it was you, feel free to open them back up if you want to. It is all up to you. Peace my daughter, rest well.

Disappointment...

My prayer:
Mighty God, awesome father, Lord of all creation, thank you for today. I praise you tonight out of a choice to do so, not in response to the day. Not in response to my emotions. My emotions are disappointment and confusion. I feel kind of numb not knowing what to think. But, I choose to trust you. I choose to love you. I choose you God as Lord of my life.

I believe that you have a great future for me. I believe that you will move in my life and change the circumstances on your time table. I am speaking this out of faith, choosing to do so. I don't feel it right now, but I know what you have said and I am making my choice. I refuse to let discouragement win. I refuse to give up on the dreams you have placed in my heart. I refuse to give up on the vision you gave me. I refuse to quit.

Thank you God for the determination to continue. Thank you for guiding me. Thank you for your continual encouragement to let me know that it is all worth it. Thank you for every opportunity to serve you and your people. I love you God and always will.

What God said tonight:
I love you back daughter. Your here for a purpose. Even in the disappointment, there is so much to be learned. You will come out of this on the other side with a new appreciation, a new ability, a needed strength that you will be able to share with others. You will be able to help others push through their disappointments.

Disappointments come to everyone. Delayed is not denied you know. Will you trust me when it doesn't happen when and how you expect it to? You have made a choice to do so tonight. Stick with that choice, it is the right one.

Regardless of how things look, I am still on your side. I am still your father. I am still your provider and you still have first son inheritance rights. You will walk into my promises. Timing is so important to you, but it really doesn't matter to me. I am in charge of time. I created the world in six days! I can do more in one second than you can do in a lifetime.

Tomorrow is not today. I will continue to work the plan for your life. You will continue on the path I have chosen for you, you are destined for great things. Continue to trust me girl. I know you are "speaking in faith" tonight. Let me make that faith become realized truth. I promise you will not regret your decision tonight and you will never regret trusting me. You are in my hands and I will not let you fall. Trust, for one more day, trust.

I know that you are still not feeling it. You are still feeling numb. That is because you have shut down a bit trying to protect yourself from being hurt. Normal reaction, but it isn't doing you any good. Let it out and let me heal you. Your decision is sound tonight but let me heal your heart.

You are so precious to me and it hurts me to see you hurt. But I can't help you unless you allow me to do it. Allow me into your heart to heal the disappointment. I am not like the ones who have let you down. This apparent disappointment is nothing more than a stepping stone to your next level. You are where you need to be.

Let me heal you right where you are. Let me wrap myself around your heart and heal you. Will you let me in? I promise I will be gentle but let me heal your heart tonight. Remember and rest knowing that my love for you is boundless. You will never reach the end of it. You will always be surrounded and in the midst of it. You were created so I could love you and you could love me. It is your primary purpose and you are getting better at it every day. Rest now. The morning will bring new joy with it.

God or the pizza...

My prayer:
Ok, God, I wasn't going to put this on the blog but when I started to talk to you about it, I felt like you said don't pull any punches on the blog. So, here I am and I am frustrated and angry tonight. I am trying to have a better attitude, but fact is, I believe you told me some things that were going to happen by a certain time and unless it happens in the next 12 hours, which it could, it isn't happening.

This happened once before when I believed you gave me a very specific word on something to happen by a certain time and it didn't. It was a huge blow to my faith. Not my faith in you really but in my faith in my ability to accurately hear from you. That is the thing that is really bothering me. Yes, I want what you said I could have but more so, I want to be sure I am hearing you accurately, especially since we are sharing this with so many people now. Now, if I don't hear you correctly, it doesn't just effect me.

So, I guess I am also a little scared. I need to understand this better. I need to know, did I hear you wrong. As Pastor Mark says, "Sometimes it's God and sometimes it's the pizza." So, was it the pizza? Was it just that I wanted this so much that my own desire for it made me think that it was you? Or, is it going to happen between now and 9AM tomorrow? Or, is it still going to happen but I got the timing wrong? I need some help on this one.

I thank you that you are all knowing. I recognize that you are not a man that you would lie. I believe that your word is truth. I believe that you are my saviour, Lord and God and that you provide everything that I need. Right now I need wisdom and understanding. In your word you have said if we lack wisdom we should ask and you will give it to us. So, I am asking God, give me wisdom.

What God said tonight:
Isn't it funny that after all of this time, after all we have been through, after all that I have shown you, you still doubt? I don't mean that as a criticism, it is just a common truth. There is something in people, in my children that no matter how amazing our time together is, something will always come to give you doubt.

Do you remember Elijah? Mighty prophet. He and I did some really amazing things together and yet you know that he would fall into deep depression and ask me to kill him.

No matter how much you see, how much you experience, you always need more. Ok, so here is the more, whether this thing happens tonight or not, am I still Lord of your life? Whether it happens or not, will you change how you see me and interact with me? Will it change our relationship? Will you trust me less? You may be more careful about discerning my voice, but is that a bad thing? No, it's a good thing because it brings you closer to me.

This thing that you want, it's here. You don't see it but it's here. You will look back on this time and laugh one day. It will all make sense in hindsight. Remember I told you that a time was coming that it would seem like it was all falling apart and that you would have to trust me in that time? Well, that time is here. You must trust me or you will drive yourself crazy.

Get back to that place of rest and trust and peace. Anything else is just going to make you crazy. I WILL GUIDE YOU ALWAYS. You have that on a big picture in your office, you look at it every day but I will also remind you if I need to.

I love you so much. Get this stuff off of your chest so we can deal with it. Don't ever let it build up. We can't afford to have anger, resentment, fear between us. We have to remain in continual covenant relationship, trusting and relying on each other to accomplish what comes next. Don't take this as criticism my daughter, but take it in the love and overwhelming care that I have for you. Tomorrow, in and of itself doesn't matter. What you do with it does.

Holes...

My prayer:
Amazing God. Your love, your patience, your mercy, your grace, your guidance, did I mention your love, is so amazing. I am reminded again today that while I am unworthy, you still love me. While I continue to make a mess of things and forget what is most important, you still love me and wait for me to figure it out and come back. I started today with messed up priorities and the whole day has been a bit off. Not bad, just off.

I love you Father. The song I am listening to while I pray/type to you is saying "rest in the father." I thank you for being my place of rest. I thank you for being my strength and my peace. I thank you that no matter how often I get it wrong, you are always right and you are always waiting for me. Thank you for never changing God. Thank you for being in the same place the first time as the third time. I love you so much.

What God said tonight:
Sweet daughter, you are in the right place. You are with me so how could that not be right. You are too hard on yourself. You don't always have to get everything right. My grace and mercy exist for a reason. I can teach you as much or more through the mistakes you make as I can through the successes.

I love all of you. I love the perfect and the imperfect in you. You are beautiful in your imperfectness. I can't use the perfect. I need something that I can fill in the holes so that the world sees me and not you. I need you to be just as you are. I need you to accept me as the one who makes you whole and complete. Let me fill your holes, your cracks and all of the empty places. When we are done, they will see more of me than you and then you will see things move, change and make a difference.

Let me be perfect in your imperfect life. Let me fill you daughter. My heart is full for you tonight. I am overflowing with love for you. receive my love, let it flow over you and fill the holes. Your "holiness" makes you ripe for my purpose.

Sanctified...

My prayer:
God you are awesome. What another amazing day! A little work, a little fun, dinner with a great friend and great worship. That guy's voice tonight was amazing. I pray that he continues to let you use him for your glory.

I love great, intense worship. I love when we get to that corporate place of worship and love for you where anything can happen. I love when I get to the place where I lose track of everything and everyone around me, where it is just me and you in intimate relationship.

It is kind of like what these nightly meetings are like with you, although these are more casual usually. But that same intimacy and closeness. Funny, not too long ago, intimacy of any kind scared the beegeebees out of me. Now, I can't wait to get to that place with you. I can't wait for those moments with my friends. Those times when we push aside the superficial and really connect. I love that. I guess that is the proof that I was made to love and be loved. I regret the years that I missed it by pushing you and people away.

God cover me in your blood and wash me clean. Make me clean so I can stay in your presence. God, I never want to be away from you again. I never want to close myself off to you again. I cannot imagine living a moment without you. I thank you for the eternity that we have to be together. I am yours God, totally and without reservation.

What God said tonight:
It is about time to come clean in Christ. You are being sanctified for my purpose in your life is upon you. You are being set aside for the work that I have for you. This is about you and me and the work that we have to do. You must be sanctified for the work or satan will take you out. You must be clean, set aside and ordained to do this work.

Your ordination is from me, just as your salvation is from me. We are about to do a great work You have been faithful in the little things and you are about to be given much. You have been waiting and I am here now. You have been hopeful and I am hope fulfilled. You have been trusting and I am here to show you that your trust is not in vain.

I love you. You will accomplish all that I have for you and maybe even more. You tend toward being an overachiever sometimes you know. I rest knowing that everything is in place. Wait on me and renew your strength. Each day has just enough for that day. Trust me every day. Seek me every day. Love me every day. Remember me and my promises every day.

You are growing at and exponential rate because I need you to. The time is so very short. We don't have a lot of time left on earth. We have an eternity together, but there are so many of your brothers and sisters that I want to come with us and they are not yet ready. Keep typing, keep ministering, keep mentoring, keep loving and I will bring them in, just invite them to stay. Invite them into this everlasting life with you and me. I love you peanut. Stay blessed!

Gifts...

My prayer:
FANTASTIC day God! Thank you for your favor!! The presentation went so well and opened a lot of doors. You are so awesome! God I love using the gifts you put in me. It just feels so right and everything goes so smoothly and easy.

I am so tired tonight but I don't want this day to end. I want to just enjoy it some more but I can't keep my eyes open. Literally, as I type with my eyes closed now :). I love you God! What's next?

What God said tonight:
My girl, we have a lot of "nexts." We have just begun. Take the time to enjoy this time and remember it for the times when nothing seems to be going right. The good times are good at the time but they are also meant to be remembered to encourage in the rough times. Remember the blessing of today to lift you tomorrow. It will help even out the roller coaster, the highs and lows.

Ok, wake up. We are not done yet tonight. It is still waiting for the complete fulfillment. There are pieces that will fall into place in the next days, weeks and months that will make it all clear, including the timing. You have been asking why you have had to wait "'so long" for these things and you have some beginnings of understanding but it is all going to be crystal clear soon. You don't have to wait on it much longer. The time is here and it has already begun, whether you realize it or not.

Rest with me tonight my dear. You have more to do tomorrow and need to rest. I am going to wrap my arms around you so you can dwell in safety and know that I am God. Rest your head on my shoulder and nestle in. Rest in me and gain your strength for another day. Accept my love, my strength, my peace and my care for you that you can have and be all that I need you to be. You are my bride, you are a royal priesthood and you have the first son rights of inheritance.

Your gifts are just tools to use for my kingdom. Your boast is not in the gift but in me who gave it to you. You will not "waste" it on non-Kingdom work much longer. You know that even that is not a waste though. You are my light in every situation. People know you are mine wherever you go and that makes me smile.

I love you with a white hot intensity and gentle tenderness that cannot be described but only experienced. I love you with all that I am my girl. You are mine and I am yours. I don't want to say good night but I see I am losing you to sleep. Rest and trust and love my dear. You are loved, adored and deeply cared for by many. Rest in our love my girl.