My prayer:
God, my awesome God. I am uneasy tonight. The constant crazy violence of this world, the disappointments of life, they all just get to be too much some times.
I know I keep talking about this and I know that every time that I do, you reassure me that you are in charge and you will take care of me. I try to remember that. I try to remember that none of this is a surprise to you. But, living it out every day, seeing dreams crushed, seeing people destroying other people, and never knowing where the next bullet is coming from...I don't know how to live with all of that and still find peace all the time.
I try to shut it out but that only lasts for awhile. I try to remind myself of your power, your presence and your peace, but that only lasts for awhile.
Even though I have asked before and you have given it to me, I need to ask again for your help. Help me to know how to live in this crazy world without letting it make me crazy.
What God Said Tonight:
Secrets are being made public. More than ever, that which was hidden is being made known. Secrets are not usually pretty. They are usually dirty and grimy and there is a reason that people keep them secret. But, the time for secrets is over. The time for knowledge is here.
When Adam and Eve first ate from the tree of knowledge, it opened a door to this day when all will become public. All will be known.
It is a lot to handle and it is not pretty. But, in the end, after all is known, I will redeem my children. I will create the new heaven and new earth. I will make a home for us that is bright, and beautiful and filled with joy and peace. I will build us a home where secrets do not live and where joy and kindness reign. I will build us a place where pain and sickness cannot stand.
I have promised you these things. Stay focused on our future together. When the secrets being revealed get to be too much, remember that we have a future together beyond the secrets and beyond he violence. We have a future together of love.
When it gets too hard to look around you, look up.