Vengeance...

My prayer:

I am very glad you were in charge of today God because nothing happened the way I thought it would and if I relied on my own ability to plan and be prepared, I would failed miserably all day long. As it was, your favor and your guidance brought me through, like always. THANK YOU!

I really do love you so much and I know you love me; but I also see now that I do still have some trust issues. I thought that I was through all of that. I thought that I trusted you completely. But, based on the waterworks show last night and this morning, I see now that I need a bit more healing in this area. I need a bit more restoration. 

Thank you for understanding God and for healing me.

What God Said Tonight:

Healing, your healing, especially emotional and spiritual healing, is not a one time event. There are layers and depths of healing. The wounds caused by the enemy can be so deep that you have to get one level of healing just to be able to see the next level of pain. 

I want you to listen very closely. I want you to understand something once and for all. I don't want you to ever forget this. I NEVER planned for you to go through pain. I never planned on you to be hurt. I only planned on joy and fulfillment in your life. The sin of this world and the enemy are the cause of your pain. 

He will be paid back one day for all that he did to you. Satan will receive the punishment due to him. Your enemy is laughing, thinking he got away with hurting you. But in the end, he will not only see you whole, redeemed, better than before, but he will see it from the depths of the firey lake where he will suffer for all eternity. 

Vengeance truly is mine because I can make sure that it is rightly placed and aptly measured. 

I love you daughter. I am with you. I am protecting you. I won't let it hurt you any more. It is all in my hands now.

God the judge...

My prayer:

Wonderful Father. I am not sure I have words to describe what I am feeling, what I need, what I want to say. Hear my heart please. Hear all the things that I don't know how to talk about. Hear all the things I am afraid to ask about. Hear all the needs that I don't even really understand.

Thank you God for knowing me better than I know myself and being everything I need right when I need it.

What God Said Tonight:

You have had a lot going on in you and in your life lately, it makes sense that you are confused. I am not the author of confusion as you know but I can make things clear for you. I can give you wisdom beyond your own ability. I can give you discernment in situations that require it. 

You know my voice, and most of the time you pay attention. When you don't, I will always try to give you the second chance. I am all about second chances. 

This life, your life, is not something that is being graded. It is not something that is being scored. It is something that is being lived. No one wins and no one loses when it comes to life. You just live it. And, when it is over, because I saved you, you will live forever with me. 

I am your judge and jury and I call you innocent. There is nothing more to know or to earn. I love you.

Marathon...

My prayer:

Thank you God for a few more pieces to the puzzle tonight. Thank you for a few more answers in this healing process you have me in. It feels good to see forward progress, although I can clearly see there is quite a ways to go. 

God, I ask for help with this anger that is rising up in me. It is pretty ugly and not very productive. It is not righteous anger, it is petty anger. I don't want it in me. 

Thank you Jesus 

(Oh! and thanks for the great hike today! It was awesome hanging out with you!)

What God Said Tonight:

Just relax a minute. 

You do not have to run a marathon in a day. (Although I know you would like to so you could be on the other side of this) A marathon (and this process is a marathon) is one step at a time and takes a while. 

For those who are prepared for it, it takes less time to finish. For those who are unprepared, it can take a very long time. You are prepared, but do not rush this. Take each step as it comes, let me heal you and we will get on the other side of this forever and for good. 

I love you sweet daughter. Go and rest.

Needing God...

My prayer:

Wonderful Father. I have been sending up fervent prayers all day. So many people I love are having a hard time right now. I know there is not much I can do but listen, but you, you can change the world. You can do anything. 

We each need you so badly God. Just to get through a single day right now, we need you constantly. Thank you for being there and thank you for taking care of us. 

What God Said Tonight:

Needing me is a good thing, not a bad thing. Needing me  is how I designed you. It is not a sign of weakness. I love that you need me. I don't love the trouble that is coming against you but I love that in it, you see how you need me. 

I love how you come to me in the trouble. I will never bring trouble on you  but I will always use the trouble to help you. 

You are my precious child and I want only the best for you. I love you.

It's a process...

My prayer:

Awesome God. I pray and ask that you complete the process of forming me into who you need me to be to do what you have called me to do.

It seems like the process is taking so long. Maybe it is never truly done? Maybe it is a lifetime process? If that is true, I ask that you help me to see the progress and give me the strength and motivation to hold on for as long as it takes.

I understand how important this process is, how important my healing is, not just for me but for everyone that you are going to put in my life to help. I get it and I am grateful for your healing power. Lend me also your strength and perseverance, please. 

What God Said Tonight:

I have got you. You won't let go and you won't give up. I have you firmly in my arms and we are walking through this together. 

It is a process and it does take time but it is worth it. I have seen you through tougher times than this. I have seen you triumph over greater struggles than this. I will see you through this. 

This one, is really kind of easy in that the work is all up to me, not you. Look to me and let me heal you. I promise, I will not let you go, ever. I promise I will not you let go. I promise your healing is in process and I will see it completed. 

Moments to remember...

My prayer:

Awesome Lord. I would like to turn off my brain for just a little while tonight. I have been working so hard and thinking so hard, trying to figure things out lately, my brain feels like mush. 

I want to just focus on you tonight. I want to focus on how amazing you are. Your love, your grace, your mercy, your healing, your power, it is all overwhelming when I really focus on it. I think sometimes I get so accustomed to having your presence in me, your favor on me, that I completely take it and you for granted. And, it takes a moment like tonight, where I simply stop and think about, focus on you, to leave me with jaw hanging down awe.

It doesn't take long, just a moment. But it does take a pure moment of shoving everything else out of my brain so I can use all of it try to wrap around the amazingness that is you. 

Thank you for being you!

What God Said Tonight:

These moments are important. Not because I need to hear it but because you need to remember it. You need to remember who I am and as you do, you remember what I can and will do. That will give you the faith and the patience to get through one more day, get over one more mountain, walk through one more valley. 

I am never far from you and I am always fighting for you. I am and will always be on your side making sure that all things work together for your good. Go, relax and know that everything will work out. Not because of what you do but because of who I am. Love you!

God the provider...

My prayer:

So much to say but my words are inadequate to express it. 

I have a bit of laundry list of needs tonight for my friends and me. God I pray your perfect will be done in every single one of those needs. 

God thank you that you will never leave or forsake us. Thank you for ALWAYS being my biggest supporter. Love you!

What God Said Tonight:

I hear your heart and I know your needs. 

I am your provider and I will provide in each situation. It may not always be me doing what you think will make the situation better. It may mean that I do something drastically different from what you are expecting. 

However, I will always take care of it in the end.