Daddy love...

My prayer:

Amazing Father. It was so good to just be back in your presence today. Not doing anything special, just hanging out together. Going for a run together. Listening and singing worship together. 

I hope it was a good Father's Day for you God. I hope you know that when I mess up, when I get off track, it is not because I don't love you. It is only my lack. My love for you will never end. forgive me for any moment when I forget to show you. 

What God Said Tonight:

I know your heart my sweet daughter. I know your love. I know your struggles and I know your pain. I knew you before you were born. I know every cell of your body and have counted the hairs on your head. 

I know your love and I cherish it. Your love is so beautiful and is coveted by many, including me. Your love is a reflection of me in you. That is why people are so drawn to you. They are drawn to the reflection of me in you, the love in you. 

Don't ever hide the love. Don 't ever let circumstances and struggles mask the love. If you do nothing else for the rest of your life, love. Let your love show, it is the most beautiful part of you.

Seek God...

My prayer:

Awesome God. I don't know how I let it happen again but I got so caught up in achieving, growing, doing things for you that I forgot the most and only really important thing. I forgot that the point is love. I forgot that you don't care what I accomplish if I don't first love. Love you and love people. It is such a simple command, such a simple instruction, and somehow so easy to forget. God forgive me for getting off track again. Thank you for giving me another chance. I will really try to do better.

What God Said Tonight:

Sweet daughter, I will always lead you and guide you. I can get you back on track. But, you have to be seeking me to find me. You have to look for my path. You have to look to me so I can show you the way. 

That was why tonight was important. When you stopped looking to the world and to your own emotions for answers and just started seeking me, when you started seeking to learn more about me, the answer became clear. 

That is what I need from you. Seek me. When things get off track, when you know that things aren't quite right, seek me and I promise I will be right there to lead you out. 

You learned or were reminded of an important thing tonight. Keep that knowledge as precious. Cherish it. Rehearse it. Remember it as you go to sleep tonight, as you go out tomorrow. Don't lose hold of it. I love you now and forever.

Get out of God's way...

My prayer:

God you are sovereign. You are in charge. Thank you for reminding me of that tonight. 

I had my agenda but I didn't check it out with you. When I stopped trying to figure it out and just started loving, that is when you stepped in and started changing peoples lives. God, I just get carried away sometimes. I get so driven to see you move in people's lives that I try to force it and that NEVER works. I am sorry for trying to push my agenda tonight God.

What God Said Tonight:

Your goals, your dreams are my dreams. How we get there, now that is where we need to talk it out sometimes. I have a way to get us there that will be a blessing to you and the people around you. Your way may sometimes seem like the most efficient or best way, but there are things and aspects of it that you don't see. 

Just like I was telling you last night, I get the bigger picture. That is why you have to trust and listen to me to lead you through. I will always guide you. 

Don't push but always move forward. Don't force it but always be making progress. I love you daughter and I love to see you minister in my name. 

Relax and do what comes natural. That is going to be the right thing to do. I have put in you the desire and ability to follow me without much effort. It will be the thing that feels right. You knew early on tonight something was off. That is the cue to stop and let me take the reins again. 

And, at the end of the night, people were blessed and people were changed in my name...that was our goal. Goal achieved. Now go rest.

When things don't work out...

My prayer:

Kind of sick of hearing my own voice God. What is on your mind? I am hear to listen to anything you want to say. Love you like crazy.

What God Said Tonight:

I have so much that I could tell you. As long as you are willing to listen, I will talk. 

There is a lot I could teach you but not all of it is things that you want to hear. Sometimes, the things I have to tell you are hard to hear. Sometimes what I need to teach you is that things don't always go the way you think they should. 

Think of Noah. Do you think he wanted me to wipe out all of humanity? No, there were people and things that he cared about. Do you think he wanted to build a boat when no one had ever had need of a boat before? No, he did not. It was not how he thought things should go. 

But sometimes, the plan and the purpose is greater than what you can see. Sometimes I have to do what needs to be done even though you won't understand. I do it all for your good. Please believe me that I always do everything for the good for you. I don't do things to harm you. 

I will always bring you through each and every struggle. I will always protect you. But, please trust me Trust me during the times when things don''t seem to be working out how you expected. Know that there is something that you may not see that I had to take care of.  I promise, it will all turn out ok. Actually, it will turn out perfectly. I promise.

Not good enough...

My prayer:

Hi God! I have been putting this off tonight because I am not sure what to talk about. I have been on a bit of a roller coaster today. 

There were great new opportunities, like partnering with the Mission, which was awesome. When I stay focused on that, I am excited and grateful. Then, all of a sudden, I start doubting myself. I start thinking, who am I to think I can do any of this. I start thinking, I am not talented enough or good enough to do the things that you are putting in front of me. Then, I start telling myself to shut up, because it isn't me doing it anyway, it is you God. Then I feel bad because I yelled at myself which is a pretty stupid thing to do. So, I make myself think about all the amazing opportunities again and I get excited...and the cycle begins again. 

It is times like this that I feel like a bit of a basket case God. Do other people do this to themselves. Can you teach me how to stop it?

What God Said Tonight:

You ask if other people do this to themselves. Check out my written Word and you will see many examples of people doing exactly that. It isn't fun but there is purpose in it. 

Each time you go through this cycle, you learn how to lean on me more. The fact is you are completely right, you do not have what it takes to do what I have called you to do. If you did, you would not need me and would do it on your own. That would mean that you would get the glory and not me. That would mean that people would want to follow you and not me. That would put you in a very dangerous position filled with pride and ego and would result in your destruction. 

I will not let you be destroyed. that is why I will always call you to do more than you are capable of on your own. I will always call you to do things that you need me in order to complete them. That way, you get to be a part of amazing things but I get the glory. That way, you get to have great purpose and achievement in your life but it won't destroy you. That way, you get to help A LOT of people but you get to be you. 

When you begin to realize that I have called you to do more than you are capable of, celebrate and know that you have truly found my purpose and plan for you. Get excited to know that I will show up and I won't let you fall. Get excited and know that this is my perfect plan. I love you daughter. Trust me.

Under the surface...

My prayer:

Awesome God. I was bored today God. Maybe just because everyday for a while now has been so exciting, normal felt boring? I am not sure, but it felt like the whole day just dragged on. I don't feel like I helped anyone today. There wasn't anything bad that happened...just...blah. 

A very smart woman who happens to be my mom told me that I should be grateful for quiet days like this to recover from the excitement that you usually fill my life with. She is right I am sure; however, you know me. I am easily bored and there are few things that I dislike more than being bored.

Ok, I am done whining. Thanks for listening and putting up with me God. 

What God Said Tonight:

There was plenty happening today my daughter, it was just a little less obvious than usual. 

You know how when you are on the shore looking out at a quiet bay, the ocean looks so quiet and like nothing is happening in it? But, when you jump in and put your head under water you realize it is teaming with life. You realize there is a whole world of life that is happening that you didn't even know about when you looked at it from the shore. That is how today was. There was plenty happening, it was just under the surface. 

Keep doing what I have told you to do. Be faithful and you will see the great things and the things that are under the surface. Love you my daughter.

You are worthy...

My prayer:

You are too good to me God and I love it!! I am in awe of how you turned things around today at work. When I started that call, all they could was talk about how it was impossible for them to contract with us based on their policies and then, one hour later, they were so excited to work with us that they wanted to start sending all of their work through us. Only you God. 

People around me don't understand and I can see why. I am living it and I have a hard time believing it sometimes. You are so very good to me!!! Sure, we have our tough times too; but you always bring me back here where I have favor that I don't deserve. 

How do I let people around me understand and believe that this blessed life is not just for me? I don't think I am very good at that part yet. How do I get them to understand that you really want to bless all of your children this way? 

LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

What God Said Tonight:

My daughter, if I could I would tell you. I have been shouting my desire to bless my children from the dawn of time. And, since that time, they have had trouble hearing and believing it. Even back in the garden of Eden. All I wanted to do is bless them. I wanted them to have every good thing and yet, they couldn't believe that and had to take the thing, the one thing, that would hurt them.

It is hard to bless someone who doesn't believe they are worth being blessed. If I could tell you anything, it would be that. Help people feel worth being blessed and then help them to receive the blessing. Don't get me wrong. No one can earn my blessing. However, when they feel completely unworthy of being blessed, it blocks them from being able to receive what I want to give them. 

Help them to see their worth in me. Help them to see how beautiful they are. Help them to see how smart they are. Help them to see that they are worth more than gold and precious gems. They are the apple of my eye and I love them so much. Help them to see that and then they can receive the blessings.

I love you for trying.