Waiting, again...

 

My prayer:

I feel like I am in a bit of a waiting zone God. With your amazing direction and guidance, I finally have a path to a solution, which is amazing! But, I have to wait. I am dependent on others to take the next steps and move forward through the solutions. Funny, they don't seem in quite the same hurry as I am for the solution (sorry for the sarcasm God, you know me and my defense mechanisms). 

It is really rotten to know something is wrong but not know what it is and what to do about it. Almost as difficult is to know what is wrong and what needs to be done about it but not be able to do it...yet. Patience has never been a great strength of mine.

So, as always God, I pray for your help. I pray for the patience I need to see this through. I pray for favor with you and with people to get it all done. I pray, above all of it, that your will is accomplished.

Thank you Lord!

What God Said Tonight:

I am going to ask you to take a minute tonight and think about all of the times that I have shown up in your life to take care of things. I also want you to think of how often there was a waiting period. Now, one more, remember how hard the waiting was during the waiting and remember how quickly that waiting anxiety flew away as soon as the resolution came. 

I promise you, you will not wait longer than is needed. I promise you that you will not wait longer than I have in my plan for my will in your life. I also promise you that once it is resolved, and you see the perfect timing, all of these anxious hours will disappear. Just as they always do. 

I love you my child, now and forever. This time is nearly done.

Impossible things...

 

My prayer:

Awesome Lord. Thank you for this time of rest and rejuvenation. I needed it. It was so good to get so many loose ends wrapped up last week. Walking into this week feels like a fresh start. 

That being said, I need you more than ever. Each day of my life I recognize a little bit more, just how much I need you. It is funny, we think of growing up and becoming an adult as a process of growing more independent. However, for me, I started out pretty independent and my life has been one long lesson in learning how to depend on you. 

I love you Lord. I depend on you for the very breath that I breathe each day. I am yours, now and forever.

What God Said Tonight:

Tomorrow brings both blessings and challenges that you cannot imagine today. That is why you will always need me. 

I have created you with so many talents and gifts and I fully expect you to use every one of them. But, I also created you to need that relationship, need that help from others, even from me, so that your achievements could be greater than what you could ever accomplish on your own.

One person can do great things. More than one person, working together, can do impossible things. I love you my child

Tomorrow's praise reports...

 

My prayer:

Awesome Lord. My mind is all over the place tonight. 

I am grateful for the rest and the peace you gave me this weekend. I truly feel recharged. 

I am excited about this potential new opportunity, but it also scares me a bit. I continue to pray that you guide me in this decision and that if this opportunity is not your will for me that you slam the doors shut. Please make it really clear to me if I should walk into the opportunity or if I should walk away. 

I continue with these weird health issues but I know that it is by your stripes that I am healed and I am trusting in you to bring me through it all. If I am missing something, if you have already told me what to do, please, tell me again. I missed it and I am floundering a bit. 

And, for the last zag of this zig-zag prayer, thank you a million times over for this life you have given me. Despite any challenges, I wake up each day in paradise with people around me who I love and who love me, food on the table, a roof over my head, a dog that is a better reflection of your love than I could ever be, and so much more. 

You are SO GOOD to me Lord, and I remain so grateful.

What God Said Tonight:

Let the worries melt away. Remember who I am and what I do for you my child. 

The challenges of today are nothing more than the praise reports of tomorrow. I am in you and in our life and my will is always before you. If you are prayerful, if you ask me, I will always let you know which path, which decision, is my will for you. 

I will say that sometimes it truly does not matter. There are decisions in your life that you could choose one of many choices, all of which can work with in my will. Life will look different with each choice but in each, I can see my will established. 

This next opportunity is not a black or white decision. I have shades of gray at times. You make the choice, I will bring it to my will. My will, my purpose in your life, can be fulfilled in either path. 

I love you sweet child, now and forever.

Leaning into peace...

 

My prayer:

Amazing God. I remain in awe of  you. Thank you for your miracle protection this week. I don't know what this next week has in store but I know you will take care of it. 

Each day holds so many unknowns right now but somehow, your peace is still the main thing that I experience. Between the health challenges, the work challenges, the grieving, and the other million challenges of every day, I look at it and think, wow, I should be freaking out a little. However, because of who you are and all that you have promised and shown me, I instead look at it all and feel your peace. I hold on firmly to the absolute knowledge that you are in charge and that you have my best interest always. 

Every once in a while, I hear a whisper that says, "Yeah, but what if God isn't there any more. What if He walks away." And in that moment, I am fully terrified, until I remember what you always tell me, you will never leave me and never forsake me. 

My God doesn't lie and My God says he won't leave me. Ahhhh, there's the peace again! I love you LORD!!!

What God Said Tonight:

I am here. I am always here for you my child. You have said it, I will NEVER leave you, and when I say "never" it truly means never. 

You are the apple of my eye and I have invested too much in you, in my children to ever turn my back on you. We are in this together and that is how it will be for eternity. 

You made that choice when you chose to walk the path of my will. When you accepted my Lordship in your life and received the salvation I provided. In that choice, so many things happened but one of those things is that we were bonded together forever. 

I love you my children and keep leaning into my peace. It is there for just that purpose. 

 

My prayer:

Feeling grateful and at peace tonight Lord. Not because of anything that is or is not going on in life, but really, just sitting in that place of peace that you have created for me. 

I love this spot. I love this spot of assurance that you are in charge and that I am your child. I can make what ever decisions I want but I choose you, every time God, I want to choose you and your will. 

There are a ridiculous amount of choices in tie world but I have learned that the only choice that does not come back to haunt me are the ones where I start with, "God, your will be done..." That is the only choice that really matters.

What God Said Tonight:

There is little difference between following my will and following me, but there is a difference. If you are a follower  of me, your heart is changed. We share a spirit. 

When you abide in me, when we are aligned then where your heart leads you is most often also where I am I am going. What we do when we get there is where you should listen the most carefully.

I love you more than you will ever know,

Yesterday...

 

My prayer:

I feel like I am praying the same prayer every week and every day right now. There is so much craziness that is outside of my control, more than ever and I can hear your voice even before I finish the sentence. You are in control. I don't have to be in control and, in truth, when I try to be in control I do nothing but mess things up further. 

So, as you do so often God, you have answered my prayer before I have prayed it tonight. I will continue to pray that your will is done. I will continue to trust you. I will lay every worry at your feet.

I pray that your strength, your peace, and your salvation rest in me as I abide in you Lord.

What God Said Tonight:

It's not that you don't know. You know that I am in charge and I won't let you down. But that is the nature of this world and the challenges it sends your way. Each new challenge seem insurmountable. Each new attack seems that it cannot be defeated. 

But, you know, from your history, that every challenge I will meet and every battle I will win. I am your Lord and you can count on me, every time. 

It is why I tell you so often to make a memorial. Do something to remember what I did for you yesterday to help you to have the faith for what I will do today. 

I love you my child and I will not let you down. This is the beginning, not the end. 

God is in charge...

 

My prayer:

Awesome God. I need you. In so many different ways right now, I need you. I need to you to take over my health and to make me well. I need you to help me to love the way you have asked me to love. I need you to give me the strength to go on, when I run out (which is more often than ever right now). I just need your help God. 

What God Said Tonight:

There is little to no need at this time to move anything faster As chaotic as it may seem right now, it is nothing more than the dust settling from the last battle.

Trust me. Trust that I am sovereign. Trust that my will shall be accomplished. 

I love you my child, now and forever.,